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  • johnny cash "hurt"

    Friday, Jul 18, 2008 12:00PM / Members only


    Video: http://www.youtube.com/v/d09eNZK3v2M&hl=zh_TW&fs=1



     


    i love this song,it always touches me.the world is filled with so many things,so many people until sometimes i feel in the sublime of it all,i feel like just a tiny speck. there are alot of people around with wounds and hurts,they can be laughing and smiling all the time but they may be feeling deeply empty inside. i used to be like that,and slowly i healed. if u're like me,and we're the lucky ones who snapped out of our melancholy,remember to care about the others around u.:)

    a while back i used to think it was so impt to be nice to everyone,until sometimes when it's really impossible and u're still trying your darnest best to live up to people's expectations,u forget,your life is actually also yours.in fact only yours. and at the end,u'll realize u're very hung up because u really cannot please everybody. don't start being mean and angry now,but know that u're as impt as the opinions of the other people in this world.something i learnt along the way that even if some of us have had some hard knocks before,it does not make us better or worse when we decide to not turn angry,vengeful and evil.because the truth of the matter is as plain as this: when u're hurt,u should not feel like nothing and when u've been liberated,u should not feel like u're a saint and martyr. that way,nothing is so bad that u want to break down,hit yourself and feel so cheated or robbed.:)

    just do what your heart says.

    mine says,do the right thing,see it thru.

     

    :)

  • Pictures....

    Tuesday, Jul 15, 2008 10:14AM / Members only

    Sharing some pics that Weiyu took. Weiyu is a seasoned photographer and has shot many covers(FHM,Maxim,Beauty,Vogue ect) and veteran artistes. Stylist is Qi Wei,the pioneer stylist/makeup artiste that came out with his line of beauty books before anyone else here in Taiwan.Wah.

    Ps. we kept joking in this photoshoot so much that i had a "sitcom" version. anyway,these are supposed to make me look more womanly. Does that mean I always looked more manly?Er.

  • sequel to the Timeserver.

    Sunday, Jul 13, 2008 11:47AM / Members only

     

    I just had a nightmare.I'm a chronic insomniac,I hardly sleep. And when I do,it scares me. I'm in cold sweat and just wrote a sequel to the poem I wrote a while back. Now that the dream is fresh.

     

    The Time server II

     

    Sleep my innocent nemesis drew my asylum

    Into the fiery flames of my mind's chamber

    Until I saw her in waking and dreaming snarl

    Her fangs,her claws,her maul

    I whimper.

     

    My bark is my sword,I chortle in retort

    I fear u none with my courageous fort

    Your stabs I dodge with blazened arrows

    I'm a marksman now,an archer's pride

    Come U may from surprise

    Squarely face you me done

    My fitful dreams crown my noose

    Cherished hour twisted loose

     

    I felt your bloodied whisper

    Curdle cold my futile veins

    Your black widowed spider chants

    Sisterhood into the cauldron

    Smear Smear Smear

    Only my good name here.

    Otherwise I lie awake.

     

    I'd never sleep again

    Not a minute,second, perchance

    To have another battle lost or won

    I sing truly in the tenderest whisper

    "Fraility,thy name is woman."

    ___________________________________________________________________________

     

    The Time Server



    U said,my dreams were yours
    Sorrow left its grasp ago
    And so like an angel glided
    Wings I saw now discarded
    The heartfelt embrace imprinted
    Fingernails and strangled clasps.


    "Witch!"screamed them
    And cry U did, heaving
    Your muffled bitter curses
    Was it then U heard me
    My worthless gutless breathing
    I,the regal cream faced loon


    I could draw my swords
    Split them at your chest then
    Demanding soul,truce,integrity
    "Fraility,thy name is woman"
    Like Lucy in Dracula,I danced
    And perished at my own peril


    Four years later,none the great
    Did the girlish banter never exist
    U,the U i knew and yet did not
    Kissed u,my best friend,venom
    You breathed, a loving serpent.
    I choked,died and lie awake


    Sleep the innocent nemesis
    I see u,heard u rob again
    Like Gatsby in his wistful dream
    I saw u in waking and dreaming
    Sleep has bade me farewell
    Lady Macbeth to the stairwell.


    And yet,this unholy fairytale
    Fed my starving broken nature
    Lessons of faith,trust and love
    Bitter vengeance,a luxurious myth
    I loved u once,u hated twice
    I thank u still, for that price

     

  • The day I became a girl.

    Saturday, Jul 12, 2008 2:03PM / Members only

    When I was younger,I had a list of favourite things. Looking and thinking back, I realized I've come a long way and changed aplenty. Of course some things remain status quo because old habits die hard.

    I used to love The Crow alot,alot,alot. Hahaha yes,because the movie spoke of all the qualities I admired,such as passion,loyalty,love,justice,mercy,righteousness and of cos the gothic slick coolness and leather jackets. Is it a wonder to u that I simply love Kurt Cobain and Nirvana as well? Well.

    I admit,I had this period of little black painted nails.Shhh and yes death shades of lip gloss,u're starting to get the picture right?hahaha but no matter how i tried,i just never became a gothic enough maiden.i dunno,it's my silly hair I guess. Mum used to have this fixation about me and mushrooms,I guess one day she couldn't decipher which was which. And so,the curse of the mushroom hair was upon me for the longest time.

    I'm considering if I should confess about that spate where I had this mammoth crush on Edward Furlong.Thanks to Terminator2,I had my "judgement day" from everyone I know who knows about this and pokes fun at me. Yes if u must know I also asked about the birds and bees and my mother was so helpful that I was convinced just by sitting next to a boy I would be pregnant,unwed and thrown into prison. In that order. Apparently, because I was such a naughty girl,by wanting one more ice cream,I could be thrown into dungeons with goblins. I say goblins not dragons because I used to be a fan of Enid Blyton and she had this thing for goblins,pixies,elves and golliwogs.Oh my oh my.

    My mother also taught me that by sniffing flowers,little worms would crawl into my nose and hatch into huge poisonouse snakes that later became mammoth pythons. When I received flowers later on in life u can be sure I looked at them from a safe radius and asked my mum to sniff them for me first.

    What was probably my fondest memory was my narcissistic way of prancing around in big caps and my brother's huge shirts. Are u raising your eyebrows?Oh yes I was this tomboy,who hung out at archades and had a penchant for video games. I drank huge slurpees that were green,blue and purple and also loved that crazy sourish green apple nonsense of a candy and Nerds too if u know what I'm talking about. One day when my junior wrote to me saying she thought I was handsome,I knew I was in some sort of trouble.Uh oh.

    I gloated for the longest time. Because I beat my brother at getting the girls. However because I was only 6 or 7,this didn't really come across as a lifetime achievment. I thought to myself that in my later years I would grow up to be dashing,disarmingly charming and so forth. I guess if u look at me now,U'd think I'm the gayest dude alive or I was my biggest failure of a project.

    We have my best friend to blame. After I met this snobbish,diva as hell girl at school,I became steadfast best friends with her. Now,she was model-like,cool,the hot netballer and I was just the class clown. I have no idea why she would turn up her nose at everybody but think I was so insane she wanted to listen to me. She did one of those things called "Makeovers" on me,and then got even more obsessed with turning me into a girl after watching "Clueless" and things like "Sex and the City".

    And then one day,I became a girl.

    My brother thinks I'm the gayest person in the world. We still watch liverpool win (let's not talk about their loss),I still insist that I like the Spurs (ok Celtics was cool too) and well now that we don't talk about which girl is cuter because I am one too,it seems almost a taboo topic if we do because my bro will throw me this dubious look as if he thinks im still the brother he never had.

  • im a vampire.

    Thursday, Jul 10, 2008 9:01PM / Members only

    hi u guys,im feeling really disoriented right now.i totally look like i belong in transylvannia with the count drako..why?

    as some of u know,i've been rather immobile lately,my leg being injured and i'm in crutches.yeah,that explains my crazy long blogs of late. i thought i felt alot better lately and i could not wait to skip out and get about.it gets quite mundane and boring when u're stuck at home like this. so,i still try to get little things done,like errands,buying groceries and err,don't look shocked,some gym done.i figured,if i couldn't bouce around,i could work on the upper parts of the body.i'm an energizer bunny,being an insomniac makes the entire experience a duller than dull drag.

    so i went out just now and i dunno if it was becos it was blazing hot OR

    i had this really thirst quenching pineapple juice i liked that i had another and another

    but

    my entire mouth and tongue are shrouded with blood as im writing.it's really scary.i was wondering why my mouth was wet,and something of a salty distaste and before u know it,i saw myself in the mirror and looked like a vampire?

    still dripping with blood.no,it's not cold sores or sores.no i didn't bite myself.no,i don't suck blood.but if mum knew i'd be in trouble,like BIG TROUBLE.so,if u know my brother and mum,erm,dun tell them ok?

    ** and then when i went to the doc earlier,he told me i have a gout condition.this is a mess.:( im supposed to be ok by friday,tomm becos i have to get back to working on my project.im going to pray now,i ain't gonna be brought down!!!

    let's drink some postivi-tea!!

    oops.gout people can't drink tea.

    我好像又闯祸了。这几天我没办法出外因为我行动超不方便,我的脚受伤了所以我靠着柺杖来过活!刚才我到外面去买点东西,不知是否天气过分热或我遭受了什么内伤,但我发现我的嘴边和舌头莫名其妙地在流血!我完全像个吸血鬼,好不好!!!!

    好奇怪!

    早时我去复诊,得了个不祥的消息。医生说我有痛风的现像,而尿酸过高。。。。。。。我本打算明天回去开会,继续筹备下个工作的步骤,天啊和,怎么那么多事!

    如果妈知道,我完完了。别告诉我哥哥呀,所有认识我家人的朋友!没事,我会祷告,再奋斗!! 天下无难事,只怕有心人!

     

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  • posted on Friday, Jul 18, 2008 5:55PM  [Report]
    Yeah the song certainly hits the heart and memories, very emotional.
  • Official artist
    posted on Friday, Jul 18, 2008 2:52PM  [Report]
    hi lydia,
    actually i 've never had tasti delite. is it frozen yogurt or something? but last two days i keep eating this tofutti ice cream sandwich my mom got. it's SOOOO good.

  • posted on Friday, Jul 18, 2008 12:45AM  [Report]
    You're anything but weird but then again, now you can add the words grace and humble to the list too. I like the word "unique" better so you have to listen to Patrick :-) He has the best words to describe you Lydia!!! How is your feet? Are you able to move pain free yet? Take care of that precious legs cuz you will be needing them kicking some butt...tough one =P
  • Official artist
    posted on Thursday, Jul 17, 2008 10:48PM  [Report]
    hey Lydia! how are U?!
    wonderful pics! U look so beautiful!!!
  • Official artist
    posted on Thursday, Jul 17, 2008 12:00PM  [Report]
    they all agreeing that u not manlike -- haha!

  • posted on Thursday, Jul 17, 2008 10:39AM  [Report]
    yeah at the cathay level 4...

  • posted on Thursday, Jul 17, 2008 7:13AM  [Report]
    Delicate but tough - that's the best of both worlds. Your gal pals are lucky to have you looking out for them :)
  • Official artist
    posted on Wednesday, Jul 16, 2008 5:58PM  [Report]
    thanks for the compliment lydia! i'll try my best to keep it just as good for the next weekend!
  • Official artist
    posted on Wednesday, Jul 16, 2008 5:04PM  [Report]
    You arrived in HK already?

  • posted on Wednesday, Jul 16, 2008 4:23PM  [Report]
    Thank you too for you comments.
    Have a Nice day.
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