Ok...I actually took a break from writing this blog because I was really tired the night I was writing it...so...to continue on about Fri...the show is like a game....basically...from what I can understand..they picked 14 contestants to perform against each other. 7 were from the Idol group and the other 7 were from the real singers group. I'm a part of the real singers group...I actually don't have the right translation for that...they call it "shu li". Anyways....the 7 idols were against the sh...Read more
Ok…so…yesterday was my first onstage performance. I was the 22 nd person to go up out of about 70. Yesterday was the last day of competition for the 400 contestants. I actually practiced my song thinking that I was going to use a head mic but ended up using a hand mic because the director told me that the sound was better. So….I was feeling a bit awkward for my performance…it wasn’t as good as I had hoped. Truthfully, we woke up so early to get to the studio that I didn’t even warm up my voice. So….I’ll have ...Read more
First of all, reading all of your comments really put a smile to my face. Thank you all for your kindness and God bless!!! Man, Bob! Who knew you’d quote the Bible! Hahaha….it’s nice to get feedback from people that I know and from all you new people who I’ve never actually met…thank you thank you…it means the world to me.
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This blog has really been a therapeutic escape for me. I enjoy expressing my deepest thoughts and sharing it all with you...Read more
Over the years my mind has just turned off or at least half functioned. I let comments eat me up. I feed off of compliments as if it is something I need to survive. When there is no compliment I begin to feel hungry and when I’m hungry I become self-conscious. It’s a horrendous cycle that goes on and on. Negative comments can really put a hole in my confidence. I am quite sensitive to what others say. It’s not a good thing. I’m trying to change this. I’m trying to accept who I am. I’m trying to appreciate what God ...Read more
It’s a sad thing to constantly depend on what others say about you. It’s terrible and stupid but I am a number one victim. Being in the industry I guess I’m a classic case scenario. Confidence is something that all artists need. In my case, my confidence is still a baby growing and being nurtured as we speak. I’m a sucker for listening to opinions when I know I should have my own opinion on things. I should have my own mind.
Here's a poem that I wrote on the plane
The rush of fresh new beginnings brings a restlessness that is
knocking at my door,
As impatience takes over me I await with anxiety for each day to mark
the end of my past and the passageway to more.
I dream of a world that will give me hope and a place that will teach
me to love who I've become,
A time for me to grow, to explore, to take risks in life, and break
away from feeling so numb.
I find myself sear...Read more
So...I just want to say...too late on the no haircut thing. I got it done last Fri before I went for an audition for a competition that I'm participating in. It's called 2007雪碧我型我SHOW and it' sgoing to take place in Shanghai. You all will be able to vote for me online or by SMS messaging. I believe the show is a bit like American Idol....but there is a musical theatre theme...not meaning that the contestants will sing theatre...but...I will sing a bit of theatre! The winners are supposed to be able to do an original musical after ...Read more
Ok...let me just say that I'm on a roll! For what, you ask? I'm on a roll of bad luck!!! That's what! So, today after I had a meeting at Pacific Coffee at Festival Walk. It's just my mom, Seth (my toy poodle hidden in his bag), and me. We were sitting in the outside area...and I decided to go in to check if they had chai lattes...but they didn't ....so..when I come back I see my mom dosing off.....and didn't think anything of it....we then decided to go to Starbucks since they do have chai latte's.....it wasn...Read more
I forgot to say thank you to all of your words of encouragement about my camera. I did call the airline several times for about 3 days and then finally decided that it was gone. It’s pretty sad because there were a few photos that I hadn’t saved yet from my LA trip…but, what can you do, right? I’m not going to get a camera for while though because that one was a semi professional digital canon! So….anything else wouldn’t be the same to me….but…I will settle for my phone camera for now…yes, there are worst things that could happen….
Wow, so much has happened since the last time I blogged. So…after my trip to NY, I headed for the last part of my trip which was SF. First of all, I had a little “incident” on the plane ride. My flight went from JFK to prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" /Dallas and from Dallas onto SF. I was sitting in one of those medium sized planes ( Dallas to SF) where both sides have 3 seats. In my opinion, this is a very stupid idea. There is no room to do anything! So….we get stuck in the plane for abo...Read more