When I was in primary school I used to be healthy,really healthy and I jumped ard like a mad nut. I used to be this hyperactive unstoppable energy and I was curious about the world. When I reached secondary school, I started feeling sick during Physical Education lessons. I don't know why but I started having fainting spells. When I was in Junior College,I was sent in an ambulance to the hospital at least 4 times. I joked with my friend then that I travelled in an ambulance so often I felt I was way cooler than everyone e...Read more
I had this extremely spicy hotpot going on for dinner last night and I am now in the middle of reviving my totured tongue. Apparently it melted with the chilli,the heat and spice and Im tongue tied, no,tongue-less now. No more tongue in cheek retorts till I revive myself!
Also,I have moved from a nice 2 no-privacy noisy apartment along the central of all the shopping districts in Taipei to my new early retirement village where I have to climb 5 flights of stairs before I hyperventilate and die along the way. It's a new old place...Read more
The weather is slightly cooler today,and I have woken from 2mths of depression. It's ironic how pple assume that U're depressed either because A. U've had a broken relationship B. your career is going nowhere C. U're mulling over something really really mysterious and they just cannot guess what.
WELL. Depression is not exactly an event or a mood gone bad. That would mean I'm on a normal day going through what a normal person feels,which may be up or down. I've had manic depression for a few yrs and sometimes I jus...Read more
I miss California and LA. I miss my walks in The Grove where the live bands played and a little bridge there I liked to stand. I miss walking in to check out my fav Victoria Secret's collection or succumbing to yet another nice fragrance from Bath and Bodyworks. I miss my cheesecakes from cheesecake factory and my eternally huge Salmon salad there,and I miss going to Ralph's for huge apples and a thousand brands of cereals to choose from and also Krispy Kremes.
I miss the giant siew mais they have in Empress Pavillion and how we had ...Read more
i've been depressed of late.I have been trying to rid myself of the negative energy,but I realised it is overwhelming. I feel myself spiraling downwards and like a moth to a flame,i feel my soul being hollow sucked into a never ending abyss.
It really annoys me when pple wish me Happy Birthday on my Birthday and I tell them, " Thanks,and happy birthday to u 2" in a reflex action as tho I was wishing them "merry christmas". And they'd look at me wide-eyed in a weird way like I had 3 heads and tell me plaintively that their birthdays were not in another 10 mths or so.
I hate myself when I keep getting into scrapes and never learn from them. A classic example was yesterday when I hopped merrily into my friend's ca...Read more
2 friends and I were in a car going for lunch one day and an interesting conversation took place. Our friend Rick was driving,and me,disgruntled and hungry was sitting listlessly in the passenger seat and a bored D sat at the back of car clamoring to listen to some music. The stereo was faulty and Rick uttered helplessly about it being a hassle getting the repairs done.
"Bored..man,am I bored. When there ain't music in a car,feels like something is missing.Arrgggh,grrrrrrrr..gaaaaaaa"<...Read more
I realise how impatient I am as a person when I was walking normally yesterday and wondered why my friends were so far behind me. They asked me politely and very sacarstically if I was perhaps on my way to my rebirth or if there was a winning lottery ticket about to expire in a few min. I also wondered lately why pple ard me seemed to not move quicker and are constantly waiting ard for nothing. That was when I realised that I had been sprinting,not walking and constantly feeling as if I had a million things left undone.
If ...Read more
I appreciate some friends with an awe,simply because as time goes by,they become like cherished bottles of fine wines. Sometimes when u first meet them,u have no idea yrs later, you would be evaluating them like this with a wry smile on yr face as u remember the earlier episodes of how u both met.
Min,u used to sit behind me in secondary sch,and faithfully kick my chair and annoy me literally to death day in and day out. It was fascinating how u could do this regularly without fail,to a religious fervent degree. And yes, u get top prize for y...Read more
U know,the one person that I first learnt to use the word "hate" on turned out to be the closest person to me in this world. Ironic?Definitely. Everytime I got into trouble, his sarcasm and lack of tact never helped the situation. It made me sink lower and lower and then I told myself someday I would laugh, no,snarl in his face and laud to him how I had survived him and became such a roaring success despite his initial curses since I was born.I had "hated" him then.
My brother was one guy u'd never know was my broth...Read more
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