Is easy to say and pronnounce when U have all the time in the world,

if one gets busy....like myself in the past yr....

I failed my duty to wirte...my so called 'passion'.

I know one can understands....setting asiade for something more important at the time

But are those stuff really more imporatnt stuff....it seems so at the time.

Still i do miss my writings...my sharing with you,

wheteher U ocassionally checking in or not, maybe I'd already lost U.

U promise something...people expected that soemthing to be delived...but it failed to deliver

first...a day...a few days...moths...irregualrly.

Who in the world would keep coming....then Loyalty breaks...Loyalty no more.

Here I m apologise....sending my regards to all fo you still log in somehow.

But next time I write...I cant promise...

cos I dont want to promise something I cant keep...

Misleading is the worst thing ever.

j

Was gonna go to sing K with a bunch of young producers.........25,26.......28

Time set at 11pm....last time they asked....i was the only one to show up,

ended up talking to the boss and become friends.....

So...this time...honestly skeptical....there's a 30% i might go.....

I guess in everything.....when people asked you to join....they are serious....

but are they commited.....not really.

Still like 3 hrs to the time.....my eyelids are falling.....well...I toook a nap

at least this is what I thought it was....here I m 645am.

Well...i dont felt like losing anything...in fact ...i m very happy n peaceful.....

should I did go....my head would probably be so heavy with ache.

I went on FB to browse........first checked out hows last night K was

People is that fast to uplaod their photos....sometimes  i wish

people can channel this kind of determination in ohter things.

After awhile....i went on to one of my buddy's page....

saw 2 tubes he put up.....i clicked to see.....

it was a record of my bday last last year.....1st one 56sec...then 36sec...

they were breif....but it said so much.....

the people there that night....the song i sang that nnight....

i know i'd been blessed.....and still is blessed.

i know tho....Time Flies.

I dint go to last night's K honestly....I didnt miss much.

I miss that night in the tube.

j

as i walk home

that i have a clean heart

i have a humble heart

i have a simple heart.

my friend took my car,

he's from HK.

I was eating at my EX and her husband and my daughter,

they were so content watching tv,

i was overly tired from work.

nor the car will be arriving anytime soon.

I want to walk.....it is a sunny day.....

my first stop....to walk acrosss their home , a cinema,

intend to watch Bruno.....still have to wait 30min.....kind of waste,

i saw the sun setting....warm yet cool....i know it will be a good walk,

split second....i decided to walk......walking home...........

here i m.......

1 hr........it feels good.

a clean heart, a humble heart, a simple heart.

I'm gald that i walk home.

j

After 1.5 long yr....after a long promise to myself.

I pick up my feet and start walking....just like Forrest Gump,

 just that..I started walking.

Discoveries in a line or 2

everyone has a will, and it's easy to genearte a good will anytime,

but we have tons of reasons, de-EXercising(prohiting)(U talked your way out of) that will.

with full knowledge the will meant well.

Reason, habits, we are so used to our routines, no one wants to do any different in a nutshell.

2

I wish I had ro walk this path with me,

i wish someone could lunch or dine with me......

u know what...when U think about it....

U had, I had that someone...those soemones who'd lunched and dined with you,

the reasons they parted....we parted....words cant describe,

but it's all good...all for better...not bad reasons..

3

As much as we might be complaining about this life i m living right now....

yeah...this current situation i m living...

But deeper down, we know, well at least i know....

this life is a much better life than many....for that....i can smile about.

All discovered in only 1 walk.

We all owed it to oursleves.....that long promised walk all by yourself.

take care,

u could stop, u could choose, u could stop giving excuses or reasonings........

if we cant...it's actually not the life we wish for....

joe

I liked it here.

'this boring little city , got nothing to see' described by most artists who toured here, Toronto.

Despite recieving an award, met my best friend in showbiz Kalok, visited my mom in HK.

I had this little revelation, not necessarily resulted from this trip, or it could be.

One has to know what he/she wants excatly in life in order to be truly happy.

someone not restricted age, always searching, still not find what one wants.

and luckily, i know what i wwant.

After knowing what I want yet knowing what I cant have despite of knowing what i want and be

content with that realsiation, i learned that too.

Sometimes, timing, distances, limitations, priority........restricted what what can have,

and if we fight......that disrupt the naturalness of things........

Finally....to know who i m, who I m excatly am.

not others see me, describe me....not even best friends'

but me and myself....looked into the mirror of my soul...........

who i am..........this is for myself to learn iin days to come........

and this is my trip to shanghai..........strange.....but good.

j