i was right by his side to care for him at his last moments. i must say he was in pain at first and my mom gave him some morphine and he settled down. and he was having trouble breathing and i helped him with oxygen mask then he got better. after a hour he calmed down and was resting. he opend his eyes and looked up and i was holding his hand talking to him, he gave a caugh of blood. and i yelled for everyone to come and that is when his loungs died out and his heart pules begin to beat ever faster because of its cut of from oxygen. and during all thishis wife runs to go get towels to clean him up worrying and i told my mom and she told his wife that he has passed. and that was kinda how it happend. really hard not to cry. but i am able to be strong for him. today i remember my fathers dad as well. the looks of the elderly lovedones when they pass. but only to a life of no more suffering.
today i have seen a first for alot of things, two of the most strongest ppl i know. break down and cry... my uncle and my mother, any my aunti who is usually the more soft hearted was able to stay strong and not cry. she did shead tears ofcourse. but i must say i have come to realise my grandfather so much and how much i love him. he doesnt want us to suffer as well so me crying would be the last thing he would want to. it was stil difficult to pray there by his body as i would pray it would seem that his chest was rising like he would be berathing... so i would have the doubt in my mind still to stop praying and look even closer to see if it was just my eyes playing tricks on me... maybe coz i just wish and would hope he was still breathing... but after hours of meditation his body was able to rest and his mouth slowly shut, as his spirit left his body. the master came and we did our richuals and set off our grandfather. little after that the people from the morgue come to take my grandfather away.
after my older cousin she takes my brother, little cousin and i out for dinner. just the 4 of us kids who were here. it was good to be out abit, talk about what yeye would always say to us when we were being to loud.... "Dont WalaWala" he would say... and it would always crack us up... cuz he never wanted to yell at us and say shut up. and a very funy and gental person he was. from the age of only 17 he was a spy for the Republic of China during WWII and along in the Cival war. after all the chaose he was forced to flee to taiwan. leaving my grand mother, mother, aunti, and uncle behind to escape exicution. not untill after 12 years they were able to reunite as a whole family once again. from hard times being my grandfather has lived a happy life, he came to America and study english to soon enough become a US citizen and changed his name to Peter Chu. as sick as he was due to the cancer... he was a fighter... and wanted to live, life in deed was beautiful. i am glad i made it back to see him and be by his side these past few days... as i am the last grandchild he did not get to see yet and also the closest to him. i thank him for waiting just that much longer for me to be by his side.
as a child at the age of two my grandfather was the one who took me to our home town in xu zhou china for the first time. and since then i have never been to china. and now i will acompany him back home once more to see him off, again.
i could write a whole book on my grandfather but dont feel the need of that for you all. thank you all for our prayers and best wishes, and sory i have not replyed to anyone really. just thanks every body.
really mean it.
my mother and grandfather
His wife and him at my brothers HS graduation
Xmas 07 with the kids(minus two cuz they were late for dinner!) mom and aunti
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