think twice about bulimia

I was watching a documentary on eating disorders after talking to Wendy about it. Apparently Dax has seen it too,it's by HBO,called Thin.

My dear friends,I used to suffer from a chronic eating disorder where I binged and binged and binged and overexercised. I almost wanted to purge and turn into a bulimic at one point because I felt so fat but I did not because erm, there's something very gross about vomitting and the toilet to me. I have this slight strange imagination. Anyhow it has never been easy maintaining balance because even though I knew I was fit and healthy I became depressed in the years where things just kept happening. Eating disorders are never about the hunger,it is about the control issues involved.

If U think U want to become model thin and beautiful by eating and vomitting,here is my advice to u,DON'T. If U think I'm preaching to u,I'm not. Let me tell u what happens when U purge too much. Go look at most bulimics,do u know why they have a bigger jaw or chin than other people?They purge so much that the glands become swollen and the opening and closing of mouth makes your jaw expand. U're scared of looking fat,well face the facts,u WILL have the biggest jaw ever. And if u think that is a myth meant to be debunked,becos u've seen yr friends look fine despite their purging, think again. Sometimes different people have different reactions and maybe they even had some sort of extra work done on their faces hence they look fine. If U think u can do too,then let me tell u,u will spend 24/7 eating,purging,recovering from plastic surgery and the cycle continues.

STOP THIS BULIMIC CRAP.

I never admitted that I was anoerexic before but yes I really suffered from it,thinking I have too many flaws. The perfectionist in me demanded some kind of crazy standard. It is not pretty. My bones were sticking out,I missed my period for 13 months and I had no figure. 1 in 5 never recover from anoerexia and many people die from this dreadful disease. Yr organs will expire. When u purge so much,your body stops doing anything but keeps purging till u don't even need to try. Models are now encouraged to look healthier.

I really needed to treat this with some seriousness because a friend of mine told me she wanted to become anoerexic and another friend thinks I do not eat. I do eat,and I never purge. But I admit that overexercising is part of the illness too but I've gotten past this already,so don't use it to mess up your life. A balanced diet is really wholesome and if u don't know what that is,write me,I will personally write u an entire chart.

BE POSITIVE, everyday will always be different,living a life where u smile your tears away is better than hitting yourself all the time. LOVE yrself,love yr friends,family,love the world. Breathe in the energy and love from the universe. It is alive. If u've had a setback think about Michael Jordan who says he has had failed so many times before ,and that's why he finally succeeded. Even Britney got back to her feet. :)