The what-nots. Cheater.

I have been feeling so groggy , because I have to sleep so much. The nights are nights and the days are longer nights..

I' ve had this stupid condition of fainting and losing consciousness when I suddenly stop breathing and then people call an ambulance and I get to be on the respirator when I cannot breathe. Some people from school will tell you I break the record in my entire school record for getting the most ambulance rides to hospitals. This happened all the way until I went into college and became healthy and clear.

Recently , things became slightly complicated. I really hate talking about my lousy health , so that is why I usually evade it. It is like screaming " drama queen " when you talk about it no matter what. I had this inflammation going on in my legs and it became rather serious as I continued to ignore it and even worked myself hard at the gym. It developed into a serious cellulitis and fever broke out too. I literally cannot walk and the doctor(s) said ,  " dude you gotta operate on this badass or you're gonna infect your whole leg and we're gonna axe it. "

Alright, so the doctors did not say, "dude" but you get it.

I hate how doctors terrify you and make your blood curdle with such language. It's worse than saying " dammit bitch , your heart' s not working , so we found something else to not work and yay , it's your favourite part of the body. Legs!! "

Don't worry , I'm not getting an operation on my heart and I'm not getting an operation on my leg . Apparently I'm getting this cruel Halloween joke , note the delicious dark humour of it all by lying like an invalid thruout. :)

I meant to write earlier with a smile , but my blood has turned cold.

I just found out something that really dealt me a deathblow. Forgive my pun. I was going out with someone and we were together for 5 years . When we broke up it was so difficult to deal with it because I just felt confused and weird . At one point I just did not understand why we ended up the way we did with absolutely discomfort in each other's company. I understand that the discomfort was mine because I felt he became unnatural.

He cheated.

I finally know now that I was not being a bitch by leaving. I am so disappointed .

PS It must be the air in Taiwan.