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As I was watching the other contestants last night....as some of the contestants were already cut to make the number an even 100 contestants.....it brought back memories of when I was in the Miss HK pageant.  I remember crying a lot when the other girls didn't make it to the finals.  I remember crying watching the video of all of us contestants shooting in Protugal.  I remember how I felt so naive and unaware of the world.  It makes me appreciate the innocence that they all have during this competition.  This is only the beginning for most of them.  Even if they don't make it all the way, this is only one experience..and there is so much more to see in the world.  I want to sympathize with them and share my experiences with them.  I want to be able to help them feel better..but, there is nothing I can do because I know how it is when you feel that way....there's nothing anyone can say to make you change how you feel...it's YOU who can change that..... I miss that emotion that they all have....that feeling of thinking that the end of the world is going to  come if they don't make it to the final cut....it makes me feel so awkward not to feel the things that they are feeling.  I feel like that part of my life has already been experienced.  Now, when something doesn't go through...when I don't get a certain part in a movie, or a commercial falls through....it's not the end of the world to me because it just means that something better and more appropriate for me is coming my way.  And I can feel so at peace because I have this in mind....even when it comes to relationships with people......Anyways....these are just random thoughts....today we compete again and basically they devided everyone into groups of 3.  The idols against idols and the 'shu li' against 'shu li'  (anyone know the translation in english?)  So...the 3 people have to compete against each other.  I compete tomorrow night. the 20th against a guy I don't know and the Korean girl  (I quite like her)  whom I think sings very well....Anyways....all I can do is try my best....繁體中文：

昨晚看其他選手比賽…有幾個選手離開了，現在剩下整整100個選手…這讓我想起了參加香港小姐比賽時的情景，想起其他女孩沒比到決賽就被淘汰時我哭了很多次，想起看所有選手在葡萄牙一起拍的錄象時也哭，記得那時的我是多麼天真和無憂無慮。這讓我更能欣賞這些選手們在比賽裏流露的純真質樸的感覺，對他們中的大多數來說是第一次經歷。不論能否走到最後，這只是一次經歷…這世界還有太多東西沒體驗呢。我理解他們，願意和他們分享我的經驗。我想幫他們感覺好一點…但我無法做什麼，因為我了解這個時候的感受…其他任何人跟你說的話都無法改變你的感受…只有你自己能改變…我想念這種感覺…沒走到決賽就象世界末日來臨…沒辦法象他們一樣去感受，我覺得有點難過。我已經煉獄過了。現在，每當什麼事情不順利…當我沒得到電影或廣告角色時…對我來說並不是世界末日，因為那意味著有更好的事情更適合我，在等著我。我可以平靜地接受因為我心裏是這麼想的…甚至和人們的關係也是一樣…無論如何…這些只是一時的想法…今天我們又要再次比賽了，我們被分成3組，偶像和偶像PK，實力和實力PK（有人知道英文裏面‘實力’的意思嗎？），編成3人組比賽。明天晚上（20號）我要和一個不認識的人還有一個韓國女孩（我很喜歡她）比賽，我覺得她唱得很好…不管怎樣…我能做的是盡最大努力…

简体中文：

昨晚看其他选手比赛…有几个选手离开了，现在剩下整整100个选手…这让我想起了参加香港小姐比赛时的情景，想起其他女孩没比到决赛就被淘汰时我哭了很多次，想起看所有选手在葡萄牙一起拍的录象时也哭，记得那时的我是多么天真和无忧无虑。这让我更能欣赏这些选手们在比赛里流露的纯真质朴的感觉，对他们中的大多数来说是第一次经历。不论能否走到最后，这只是一次经历…这世界还有太多东西没体验呢。我理解他们，愿意和他们分享我的经验。我想帮他们感觉好一点…但我无法做什么，因为我了解这个时候的感受…其他任何人跟你说的话都无法改变你的感受…只有你自己能改变…我想念这种感觉…没走到决赛就象世界末日来临…没办法象他们一样去感受，我觉得有点难过。我已经炼狱过了。现在，每当什么事情不顺利…当我没得到电影或广告角色时…对我来说并不是世界末日，因为那意味着有其他更好的事情更适合我，在等着我。我可以平静地接受因为我心里是这么想的…甚至和人们的关系也是一样…无论如何…这些只是一时的想法…今天我们又要再次比赛了，我们被分成3组，偶像和偶像PK，实力和实力PK（有人知道英文里面‘实力’的意思吗？），编成3人组比赛。明天晚上（20号）我要和一个不认识的人还有一个韩国女孩（我很喜欢她）比赛，我觉得她唱得很好…不管怎样…我能做的是尽最大努力…