my greatest love

do u know how much i really love u?i don't know if u do,but i do.i really want u to be happy,to do the things u like and to smile smile smile all the time. do u know u have a charming smile? u have this shy but charming smile,as if u're afraid to let people know your secret. but i know. u just don't want us to see how lovely u are.u're really such a capable person,especially in rgds to accounts and your meticulousness in keeping everything in order.u really are so sweet,u go out of your way. everytime u see your friends,u put your arm around me and introduce me proudly to all of them.i really used to feel like a zoo exhibit but secretly i liked it.:) i like how u say my name with a giggle.u said u will love me even if i don't love u.u said u will always love me becos u don't know how else to,not love.u said,u were cheated on,so u warned me about the dangers of lying and cheating.u said it was ok to choose this line even though u were worried i would stray.but i heard u tell your friends loudly that i am the most well brought up person u know,becos God raised me.i was so touched.

i really am so scared.

i don't know what to do.

u're sick but u refuse to say what,kor refused to tell me either.are u afraid i'd come home and give up my career?but how can i do anything if u're not there?is it your cancer coming back to haunt again?it's 234am,im bawling like mad.wad am i going to do if i don't know what is wrong?i am not there to hug u and tell u,what a wonderful person u are.i am so selfish to not be by your side.u don't have a husband but u have me.and kor.do u know,i really want u to be proud of me.i only know i love u,the most in this world.

mum.i don't dare to cry in front of u,so im hidding in my room.pls don't leave me.