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Terry Lee
Composer , Musician
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Disappointments, Faith, Change and Tomorrow

My luck fuckin' changed. My life is about to change too. I have never felt such strong synchronicity in every event in a day...linked in such precision and such direct signs from God telling me that something is about to jump off.If you ever read my writings, you notice a certain insecurity and an irritating sense of no-confidence that inhibits me from delivering my best. If you have ever read my writings, you may know that I'm the cat who does what he do very well. and that's that. no need to brag more or not give myself the credit for the hard work i put in to be able to be still doin' this at 30.But the point is- my luck done changed. a set of intentions, prayers, or what you would like to call out that I put out on a blank page with some crayons is manifesting in great coincidences lately. It was that "if I got this, I'm good to go" prayer. But I had faith. And I said "fuck it with this bullshit luck and problems, i've met too many muthafuckas who have used, cheated, etc  me...and too many good ass cats to be dealin with this bullshit.Truth is- the turning point was I worked on a film called Sing To The Dawn last year. Not just me, but a couple other cats who I used to work with. But I knew what I wanted to do with the film...I knew how to present it, how to sell my idea and how to make them bite. But the bigger story is, throughout this process of not getting paid by a certain production house and almost running bankrupt, then being coaxed into a year of litigation which i had never believed in and believe it is the reason why me and my partners never made any money, and a lot more bullshit in between all this...the name on the poster does not have the man that wrote the song you are going to remember most in the movie. But legal has its legal and I believe good legal and good advisors don't let you fall. I have decided that I will take control of my own career and direction and people who would love to work with me can choose from an option of areas in my work and enjoy them the way most of my boys enjoy working with me.My story is too long and of no interest to you guys. I work behind the scenes to make sure things sound beautiful. In some sick way, it's the voyeurism aspect of my creation, being able to watch it from afar that turns me on. It makes me feen for it. The bottomline is...having faced the reality of something that I had put hope in for a year....the one that came true was what I wanted...a home, a stable place to build my life here in Taipei. And it's about to go down in some many miraculous ways. I was greatly disappointed in people I trusted. I do not blame them but I believe in being mature about the disappointed and personally accepting that things are going to change from here. Maybe things will go better for all of us, maybe it'll bring greater speed to achieving all our individual goals. Heaven has a plan and it will happen. For now, I am tucked into a bed. A real one. Not a loft with a mattress. A bed..in a room, with nothing but a bed and a lamp. zen-ed out like a muthafucka and going to bed.Hello, Tomorrow, you're finally here. Glad you made it. It's been a long time coming...did you bring that girlfriend i've been asking for..?Peace..

over 15 years ago 0 likes  5 comments  0 shares
hey how ya doin? Hello tomorrow~!
over 15 years ago
Mariejost 26 dsc00460
"Hello, Tomorrow, you're finally here. Glad you made it. It's been a long time coming...did you bring that girlfriend i've been asking for..?" One thing at a time. :-) As bad as this sounds, at least you only lost a year of your life to something that never panned out because of the maliciousness of other people. I lost 10 years and had to totally reinvent myself from the inside out. They took more than just a project and some money, they destroyed my career, and truly there was no getting it back. The damage they did to me was too great. It is crap when people treat you that way, but all you have to do is look around you and you see people who have it worse than you do. Every time I think about what happened to me and feel bad, I think about people in Iraq or most countries in Africa who, no matter how hard they try, could never have a life as good as mine--and through no fault of their own. In fact, it is often through the fault of countries like mine. I hate feeling guilty for something the president of my country and his cronies did, and I never voted for any of them or agreed with any of their wrong-headed policies. I guess it is guilt by association.
over 15 years ago


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Languages Spoken
english, cantonese, mandarin
Location (City, Country)
Taipei, Taiwan
Member Since
November 20, 2007