Been trying to get things together. Trying to get in shape... settle agreement with new management... get my own imaginations onto paper. But after awhile... it could get tiring... eventhough you've been moving forward for some time, the road seems just as far as when you first started. Kinda needed to find some motivation... and well... being sort of the loner I am..
I just went and just found some good speeches to listen to.
Listening to these, it made me think about more than just motivation. It made me think about what's important to me. What kind of principles I might have. What I work hard at. I know no one can be perfect... and well... I'm probably not even close enough to be labelled good in many ways. But I
know... the one thing I am good at or that I try very hard to do. And that is keeping my word... being honest. In the 2nd Vid, it really got to me when he said, "Being able to look your friends in the eye, and know that you didn't let me them down... because you told them the truth." The reason these words stuck out to me is because it seems lately, I just keep getting lied to. Well... after awhile... it just really sucks. Eventhough I know no one likes being lied to but I really really detest it. Many people just don't understand how a simple lie can affect someone. A lot of times, they might be thinking they are doing the person a favor by lying and making something up. Making it seem as though they are doing it for the sake of the others. Sometimes it could be. But in most cases, they're just lying to themselves. The only person they're doing good for is themselves by telling these lies because they don't want to get in trouble. Greed gets the best of us. A lot of times, if you know the person you care about or love will get mad, well then don't do it... or talk about it and work it out before hand. Lies start from greed and temptations to give into something when in the moment, you forget who you can hurt or affect from this action. Often we know who we're hurting, but we just neglect them coz of our own selfishness. Of course I think everyone has the right to privacy. And if these secrets doesn't really have anything to do with others then I don't see any harm in not wanting to tell. But remember this... "treat others as you would have them treat you." It really is that simple. But no matter how many lies that come my way... no matter how much bs like "oh my family is in town".. or "i'm at my manager's"... I won't do this back to anyone else... coz it's not how I invision my world to be. So I'll just walk away from these people and hope the ones who I care about and love, can deal with one less sin while I'm around. One thing I'm also working on myself is just knowing when you're wrong and not being too embarrased or arrogant to apologize. A lot of times, no matter how big you screwed up, a REAL apology is all that's needed. Don't be so arrogant to think that your lies are so good that you can get away so easily. A lotta times, these lies are so bad and easily seen throw... but people love you too much to tell you they know about it. And... you're not only hurting them but also mocking their intellegence. You know... in some ways, acting is sort of lying. Becasue you're trying to make people believe you're something you're not. So... since I'm already lying/acting as an occupation, I don't want to have to fucking act and lie while I'm trying to live my life too. At the same time, I think the more bs people try to throw my way, the more I grow. I learn I can take the hits and able to move forward.... like how Rocky says it haha.
Speaking of getting hit and keep going the distance. I think this next lady is a good example. Embedding is disabled by request for the next video so you might have to double click it and go into youtube to watch this vid.
If you read the comments in this clip, well at time mark 1:24 the girl who mocked her for having the dream to be a singer probably feels pretty stupid now with so many people dissing her. And yes what they all said is very true. Don't judge a book by it's cover. When the time comes, no matter how much crap people have given you, no matter how many people ridicule you, if you've worked hard and keep on trying to follow your dreams..... it might just come true.
Keep striving... and good luck... may your dreams come true.