Do you remember ?

There was a kingdom named Fantasia where flying dragons, princesses, sphinx, gnomes, stone giants and brave little Indian boy all lived. This kingdom was threatened by "The Nothing" and  Bastian, a young boy from the real world, was the one who had to help Atreyu to save Fantasia.

I don't remember how old i was when my father came back home with the video tape of this movie. I remember that i found the Empress beautiful, that i cryed when Artax died in the Swamp of the Sadness, that I admired the courage of Atreyu and I felt relieved when Fantasia has been saved.

I remember what the Empress told Bastian when he asked her what the Nothing was. She said The Nothing exists because the children nowadays don't believe anymore in fairy tales and that was the reason why Fantasia was dying little by little.

I know i'm too old to keep Fantasia alive, but i hope when i will be a mother that my children will not grow up too fast. I know "life is a bitch and then we die" and they should be mature early enough to protect themself but... Fantasia is such a beautiful place... It would be too bad to not going there. Dreaming doesn't mean being weak right ?

I don't have any sisters and brothers and when i was a child my parents worked hard to give me a comfortable life. So I spent my childhood by myself, watching the TV and reading books. Believe it or not, 50% of my sense of values come from books, manga, anime and movies. They taught me justice, courage, hard work and perseverance. I don't know how to explain this. Many people at that time told my parents that letting me watching stupid young boys fighting to protect a reincarnation of Athena or any other japanese anime was a bad idea, that it was violent and stupid. But i was fascinated by all this courage and obstination to save the world no matter how bad the odds were. I was pumped up by all those little girls and boys who trained so hard to be the best football or volleyball player, who wouldn't give up at any price because they were injured. I learnt all this as a lesson for my own life. I will skip the part when the other kids in school bullied me because "Loan is still watching cartoon at her age hahaha"...

My mother was sorry to spend so little time with me, she always said she'd like me to stay a kid for ever (ok she also wanted me to be a boy when she was pregnant but this is another story ;-)). So when i grew up I lied to her and behad for a long time like a little girl, watching Disney movies, reading fairy tales books and asking to go to Disneyland with her both parents at 16...Don't get me wrong I was not childish against my will, let's say i purposely "exagerated" the childish part of me to not make my parents felt like they wasted their time by being so busy.

If i think about it it's so ironic. Acting purposely like a little girl to ease my parents guilt is such a proof of maturity...haha

Anyways, i am proud of what TV and books taught me and i hope Fantasia will exist forever after.

But you didn't answer my question, do you remember Fantasia ? ;)