Where Did You Go

Where Did You Go by Shimona

Almost 5 years ago, my brother, Reuben Kee, was one of five boys who drowned in a tragic dragon-boating accident in Cambodia.

A few days ago, I allowed myself some time to sit and miss him.

You see, when the event transpired, I was so clammed shut with emotions that I could not write.

Ironic, me being a songwriter and whatnot...

But inspiration is a tricky fella.

Almost 5 years later, I find myself remembering - the disbelief that he was really gone.

I think one of the most difficult things about death is that it usually happens suddenly... and well, lasts forever.

When my brother passed, I sometimes wanted to run away from my house.

The jarring "sameness" of everyday life was contrasted by the fact that nothing was ever going to be the same again.

I remember my mother being so devastated, she kept thinking he would just open the door and walk back into our house.

We've come a long way since then.

I strongly believe that it is not enough just to survive... we must also THRIVE.

Death is a fundamental part of life, and nothing on earth is permanent.

We took one step at a time, one day at a time..., and slowly but surely, we learned to live life again - without him.

But that hole is still very much there... still where he left it.

So this song is perhaps one of many other songs I shall write about the brother I miss so much.

Not with us anymore, but never forgotten.

We love you Reuben.

LYRICS:Where did you go

when I turned around

you were there just a while ago

You walked along this life so strong

how could you suddenly be gone

And I am waiting for the moment

you return

I am waiting for the door to open

I am waiting to hear your voice

But where did you go, you're not here.

Where did you go

in the blink of an eye

you were gone and I did not know

I cannot see how you disappeared

from my life in a wisp of wind

Maybe someday I will understand

Maybe someday I will see

Why the Lord had to take you from me

but for now, you are gone, you're not here.