I'm Down. Hopefully things will look up soon!

I suddenly feel down. I'm not usually a negative person, but all of a sudden it feels like there are so many obstacles ahead to becoming a "real" recording artiste. i guess that's why a couple of people have been advising me to do a '5-year plan', and then a '10-year plan'. One of these, who I consider as a new mentor of mine, advised to do this so that i won't be disheartened - and i'm starting to see the wisdom of this. already, i feel down, that 1) i dont have all the funding to pay the musicians and arranger involved in my EP what they deserve, and my money is seriously RUNNING OUT2) i can't hire people to do things  do a music video / document my studio, recordings / style my photoshoot all the time because of monetary constraints and these lovely professionals also need to earn their living,3) the album project has been so spaced out that there's no momentum - and in fact i'm the one driving everyone else,4) my resources have run dry because i haven't secured any paid corporate or wedding gigs recently and i have no energy at the moment to promote myself that way although paradoxically i should so that all that money can be used for points 1 and 2, 5) I still have to think about a "proper" job to do before i graduate which is the end of the year6) my parents aren't particularly supportive even though they still come for whatever shows they can and tellm ei've improved7) I don't have the time and SPACE to write and explore new songs - which is what i really want to just do - people in my house just keep making too much noise, or else complain that I AM MAKING TOO MUCH NOISE8) I keep having this nagging feeling of - will i ever make it as a recording artiste and how the hell do i get there? this EP is a first step, but what do i do with it?? Who exactly do i send it to? I've looked up plenty or record labels but they never have their A&R contacts! What about the jazz festival circuit? how do i get to be programmed on these things? it seems, that you have to make a name for yourself first. but then how do you do that???i'm just being very very honest here. hopefully i'll feel better in a couple of days and be back to my optimistic "i can conquer the world" kind of person that i used to think i was.