It's been 3 years since I've released a new album,some say that I've given up on music others say i don't have the hunger for it anymore. Well to me music is not something that you can ditch out anytime anywhere although the Hong Kong music companies has a habit of forcing the artist to release atleast 2-3 albums per year. I just think that one must have the time to experience ups and downs on different stages in life, In order to actually have something to imput into that album. An album is NOT something for an artist to sustain their popularity or simply just to bargain an award, For me it's history! It's a milestone to that stage and moment of your life that you want to express through music.But by defending that principle it has been a tough 3 years just arguing with my company and all that crap why i'm not releasing. The past 3 years, i went from single.....to married.....to having a son....to knowing myself a lot more and these are the things i wanna share through music. Not the usual someone writes some melody and lyrics and hand it over and ok i'll release that although i have absolutely no idea why i'm attached to that topic. I've always thought of life itself is like war....everyday, every stage is about how u wanna reach a goal and then defend it. Over these past 3 years i found out that for the past 28 years in my life i have actually never done a project with my father. Maybe it's because i've been trying to avoid that shadow of living in my father's name. Then one day i realized that he is 75 years old and doesn't matter if i have surpassed that shadow what matter is my father and that i should be proud of it and not hide that fact that i am his son. So i wrote a script for my MV and had a concept and invited him as a special guess apperance. The details of the story i will tell later on but it doesn't matter how it turns out, what matters is that i or(we) had a great time during the shoot and that i know i will never regret simply because i made good memory with my father and we fought this battle TOGETHER. It tough watching a love one age and hear them say that they are expendible. But pulling this dream together? it wasn't easy. My vision was to shoot on a flight carrier and have fighter jets skim through the city and have my father as the fleet general. So in this MV, I played as a pilot and not knowing the general that i hated was my father, he kept the fact away from me just because he wanted to make me stronger and not have emotional side effects while he sends me off to missions, after the first mission where he triggered another jet to challenge me in mid air without me knowing i hated him even more.Then he found out that i had health problems so he pulled me off the 2nd mission and i got pissed not knowing there was a reason. I had a surgery while i was conscious and it went well. so he put me back onto the 2nd mission which was to have a new prototype jet break the atmosphere and hit outer space. Of course i succeeded but i didn't know that my return engine was malfunctioned and fell off during the sonic boom. I finally found out that he was my father after i had complete the last mission but was not able to head home....so the only and the last word that i had ever said to him was calling him Dad through the monitors in the control room. That's the summary but of coarse there will be much more in it. Enough said about what i want! How on earth am i gonna do such a big budget music video while the whole word having financial problems and debts..The minimum cost for this video was in the millions and i thought. here we go again! The aiming too high habit has kicked in AGAIN. But i defended it, cause i wanted to give it all since this might just be the last and only project i can do with my dad, i talked to alot and i mean ALOT of sponsor and worked on computer graphics for awhile..i think i made it. The post production is still in progress but i think it should make my dad proud. Just the smile i saw on his face when i lead him into my studio and said "you've taken me into alot of your sets. now it's my turn. take a look at mine!" I saw relief....I saw an old man feeling that he didn't waste his time on a fool,well? for now..18350 frames of computer graphics needs to be done and i have a dead line to meet. So...every second right now i am still scared of not knowing how the outcome would be. But as i said I defended my dream, and will do for the rest of my life cause that is me!!!!
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