a proposed method of termination.

some day the moment will come. and when it does,

i will linger there..

with a tiny, fearful smile upon my face.. brimming with confusion from the inner upheaval of exuberance versus anguish.deciding in the end to both laugh out loud while shedding tears of not joy, but extreme sorrow.

and for the first time in my life, i will speak confidently. and i will say, "i knew this day would come. i knew my hope would not be fruitless."

all the while knowing that i was never sure.

and that day will finally be the end to this trying chapter in my life.