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Sunday, Apr 5, 2009 9:52PM / Standard Entry
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Man i has been a while. But the blogging bug was biting so i figured i'd give in.
Sunday night. I just finished a long hike, dog and apartment are now clean, and a cold beer, cup noodles and a movie await.
Heaven.
Once
i get past the fear being lonely, i realize that i like being alone. I
spend so much of my time being "up" and socializing that it is down
time i need to recharge. If only i didn't kick and scream so much
before settling in.
Learned a lot about myself the past few
weeks. I actually felt a change take place. I think it might take,
we'll see. It has something to do with taking responsibility for my
behavior. I tend to always think i am right and i spend a lot of my
brain time rationalizing how other people have done me wrong. And this
time, i took a step back and stopped blaming and just, well,.... it
was a very visceral moment. I can't say i felt very good about
myself. I didn't. But it brought me to a place of acceptance of
responsibility. And the feeling was overwhelming. I was on the MTR
and i felt very raw and exposed and the tears came. The people must
have just thought i was a crazy gwylo. Oh well. I AM a crazy gwylo.
Elsewhere
the new office at Focus On Film (dubbed the FoFfice) is super cool and
a joy to be at. Andrew Lau has provided us with the space. Bless his
sweet open minded soul. It is a funky, messy, arty, industrial.space...
and Billy is there with me every day. Not cause we have to be or cause
we are making a mint, but because we believe in driving this idea to
completion. We are giving it our best shot. I hope it works! I feel
like this is the last hurrah. I can only do non profit for no pay for
a limited amount of time. It is not like we don't get funding, we do...
just not enough. I need to eat. I have given it until September and
then i will reevaluate.
Filmart and the HKIFF have been loads of
fun. In the past few weeks i have learned more about how to network
then ever AND i got some quality time on equipment i need to
understand. The RED cam mounted as a stereoscopic rig set up got most
of my attention. And the talks by Matt Aitken from NZ - the VFX master
behind gollum and king kong really got me going. He was lovely too,
encouraging me to continue to explore even if i am only an inde
director with no budget. Met a lovely guy too, but didn't pursue- he
was NZ bound and i was otherwise engaged at the time. Shame, we hit it
off so much that people thought we were together and we hadn't yet
spoken more than a few sentences together!
The teaser/promo shoot
for Y4, the art house horror feature i am writing with Ben is going so
fast it is crazy. We are shooting in three weeks. Yikes! Casting is
in two weeks time and there are costumes to design and build and
production design and locations to nail down and and and and.... It's
all good. The team is working very well together and it just feels
right. Lots of good folks have let us know they want to audition. It
feels really good to be in the director's seat again. Hopefully we
will have something done by the time i leave for Cannes. And leave for
Cannes I will at the beginning of May.
I am looking forward to
getting back to Europe. I haven't been in a very very long time.
Reconnecting with old friends will be good for the soul, and Robert is
taking me to Italy and Jac is taking me to Scotland! Not bad for a
broke starving artist!
In the meantime, I'll prepare the Focus On
Film kids work from the last screening to bring to the Marche and shop
around. The A Girl's Life screening went so well it was a very moving
moment and the culmination of a lot of crazy hard work for six straight
months. It was good though, the audience loved the films,not cause
they were films by kids, but because they were well done thought
provoking works.
Okay, i'll close with a glam anecdote. Was
out this weekend with the Dig and he brought me to meet Eve- the
supermodel from a decade or so ago... the one with the amazing shaved
head and the tattoo of a dragon above her ear. He was right, we hit it
off. She was cool and funky and spunky and gorgeous. It is always
cool to meet folks that inspire. And as i look back over this blog i realize how much i have been inspired over the past month especially.
Sometimes inspired to do things i wasn't very proud of, but i have met a
lot of very intersting quirky people.
So now to that beer and movie. What should i watch : Infernal Affairs or Bourne Ultimatum ( i still haven't finished it yet!)
I"ll let you know next time.
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