thunder storm and loneliness

Em...

what is it with thunder storm and loneliness...

I have never been really scared of thunder storm, but for some reasons, I can always recall  the 2 times that i felt really lonely, and both of them was with thunder storm outside...

the first time was when i was 14, i was in italy when this summer camp thing, and i remember two of the friends from the trip got together, and there was one night, the weather got really bad and woke me up, i remember i was thinking wowwwwww this is  crazy and i better close the window. and when i tried to get up, i got this crazy cramp on my legs due to all the walking during the day. biting my tongue trying not to wake anyone then i see this 2 younger lovers were holding each other in their arms and tried to comfort each other from the thunder ( YES we were in the same room but it's not what you think and i believe there were many other people sharing that room with us ) and after all these years , i still remeber the way i felt back then

it was rainning really heavily last night..... at least it was bad enough to wake me up at 3am, it was like the end of the world, the thunder was sooo loud... and yet..... here i was again, lying on my bed , thinking ' do i need to close the window?' and ' i better switch the TV on and see what the heck is happening'... and well.... after all these years, I'm all alone again, with no one to comfort me during the thunder.... well when is the summer gonna pass therefore there will be no more thunder storm at night???

OR maybe i should just stop thinking and make sure i turn the music on and close the windows before i go to bed from now on

ok enough BS , time to get on with my life