I woke up this morning and was like........WOW!!  Its almost november and this year just flew by....my detox went very well, drinking chamomile herbal teas.....CALMER, STRONGER, THINKING AND FEELING CLEARER.......no alcohol, no caffeine, no sugary drinks, no feeling groggy........its been great....I highly recommend doing this once a year.

Every monday night.......by myself.. I sit and watch "Next Stop, Happiness" or on wwwmysoju.com its know as "Autumn's Concerto".......and I LOVE IT!!

I don' t really like dramas.......and haven't watched them in years....not really even Meteor Garden when my own brother was in it....yet he has matured, evolved, and grown as an actor, a man, and as he says..... a servant of god 

I find emotions are always a factor for all of us...meaning our family unit, it drives us and helps us understand one another, accept when we don't want to, and love unconditionally through the storms and sunshines of our lives.........

Babble...Babble...I'm going to try to live in the moment..........ONE LOVE-

Do you remember where you where when 9-11-01 happened???  I was driving to work towards LA and 3 months pregnant........wondering why the freeways where crazy empty and why my work was all locked up....told to go home ASAP!!!

As I sat in front of the TV watching the horror that unfolded.....I couldn't help feeling so sad for those who lost loved ones....lost heros that tried to save the loves ones....and angry that in the name of some religion someone could do this.....but its not because of religion...thats  bullshit, lets just call it what it is....TERRORISM!!!

I will never forget that day.....let us never forget 09-11-2001....REMEMBER!!!   I visited ground ZERO and its a very sombering experience....you never know when god chooses to take us.....so on that note...be loved, say love, know love............and live love, because tomorrow you never know.........REMEMBER!!!

I love you today, tomorrow....................

8...7...6....5...4....3...2...1.....counting down the days till I see NANA 

I'm reading a book called "CLEAN" by Alejandro Junger M>D>......about detoxing, its awesome...gonna do it and its healthy, organic, and most importantly good for you!!!  OH....and I bought the book for wendy and van.......so Y'all gotta do it too.

We all need to clean out our systems once a year and get on the right track......we've only got one body so lets take care of it........

Think positive, Be positive, SELF-MOTIVATE!!!

XOXO

So many birthdays in August....tasha, darlene, renee.......all my best girls and of course my brother VanNess.....xoxo

I've had major insomnia this past week since my munchkin isn't around......was kinda weird, ya know....my little sidekick that calls me a gazillion times a day...mom where are you??? ......mom I'm hungry....mom i love you...SOOOOO MUCH!!! MOM......MOM....MOM.....

Yep...working more but missing her ALOT, not that she really misses me.....she's with her uncles and gan-dei...surrounded by love, love, love, love, love.......thank you god-

This heat is just gross....trying to drink even more water to stay hydrated....heat makes me grumpy, grumpy....

Okay...random junky thoughts.....need to shower and SLEEP....ZZZZZzzzz

Iºve been going to the beach on some of my days off with the nana.......its free therapy and watching my daughter is priceless, sheºs grown up so much that, a part of my heart aches to know........sheºs not my little baby anymore but a little girl with so much love and a purity Iºll do anything to protect.....this world is crazy but we march onward!!!

Just when you think....some things will let up, it sucks you right back in and you ask yourself.......WTF!!!   We shall see......I have to learn to be better-