Another Sleepless Night

whatever how long i will stay here in my work place ,

actually ,i don't care .although i got ,alli should is learnning the skills ans techniques to do the business ,,and create a better picture for my future ,but,one thing i have to keep ,that is my english .i will never ever stop learnning English and Japanese ,Cause they are my weapon to make a for me ..mark this

Taizhou ZheJiang China

Victor-BJ,wang

there are to many things i just feel confused ..

i wondered on the street ,and checking everyone's movement

they are cute ,lovely ,and funny ,then what about me ,just a kind of role in this trulely world ,sometimes i stopped ,and pay a  closeattention to one thing that i thought iis really meanningful ,but the things always make me domw ..

 whenever i don't remeber ,the friends i am with ,people once i talked ,they had gone ,nothing left t o me ,it seem to  be loneness ,but accually i have no idea...all i regret,i didn't  keep a  close touch with my family ,with my friends, with my class mates ..are they doing a great life ,are they miss me sometime ,or whatever !

i got to know the one who signed the contract with me ,was she serious !maybe not ,but what i am ,i am serious ,then she should be sory to me ,Because she doesn't care much about human privilage ,and just play like a dog, or nothing !...i pary to god .do not lead into tempattion .but deliver me from the evil one to the holy one .Cause i really do not konw how to keep The Sadan away from me ,sometimes i scared ,i am afraid that someday in my life ,i am gonna lose everthing i loved ,even i have been this kind of situation .they said : if you really love something ,then set it free ..if it comes back to you .it is yours ,if it doesn't ,it never was ,i feel depressed about the fucking way of saying ,just fuck off ........

       i am wondering that how i got to be the way i am now                                                                                     days latter ?what i am gonna be ,and days ago what i was i don't keep that in my mind ,i believe that nothing lasts for ever ,i might do nothing ,is just because i am not hungary ,because when peoople are hungry ,there is nothing they won't achieve ,

sometimes i thought : Growing up was just like a dream god must have his own reason to send me into this fucking world ,so live ,and live stupidly ,even silly and folishly ,i care more now than the past i care that less ,i smiled and spoke to myself ,:  what ever !

i love :  the promises we made

 the contract we signed ,the dream i had   ...that everythng is just a dream

you told me that ,i still have a age-old question that is : what is love ,? "why that my mom give birth to me ,and how i just grow up in this kind of fucking world ,  am i a frake . or i am not ,ever maybe i am genius .,i thought , but she doesn't care ,  even for fun ,,,,

i don't know much about her

  but she called me yesterday,from her voice that i can see that she is not a very bad girl

i just don't know ,i just want play with someone will play the game with me .

  but she is not the type i thought : and whatever ,i send the contract to her ,i really won't pay much attention on that , still i am scared of that  ! what i am gonna do for that ...

let it be ,no. i can't ,because i am the main person in this game ,i am afraid that i wll become  a lfailer !