it has been so long (1 year +) tat i'm used to him being around me, involved in my life, pamper me, take care of me, entertaining me, giving me all the attention...

every morning on our way to work, we'll text each other..buying breakfast each other, during work - instant message whole day, after work - hang around my desk, helping me do some effortless jobs, text me on his way home..if i were to work overtime, he would happily make hot drinks for me, buy food for me or even at times wait for me to knock off..things went out of hand, as he's attached..he's with his galfriend for coming to 4 years, and i believe they are staying together..

anyway, things went out of hand in another way too...after an incident i decided to stay away from him, stop talking to him..due to wat? jealous? angry? pissed? i guess it's a mixture..

i knew long ago tat he started texting this gal (she's attached too),till one morning..

as usual i texted my team including him whether want mcdonald's as breakfast cause i'm reaching office early...

then he said he dun need, which i already saw him on the train (we were on the same train), but he was too far away, so i didn't call out for him...

so i walked to mcdonald's myself..soon i saw him queued beside me, really shoulder to shoulder beside me...i thought he would call me...but he didnt..

after awhile i saw tat gal beside him, they were talkin...so i decided not to "disturb" them,since he dun have the intention to call me in the first place (meanin his sub-con doesnt want anybody to disturb them - i felt)

oh, and he must have been texting her too if not she wouldnt know tat he is at mcdonald's (cuz mcdonald's is at another direction to office)

after they got their food, they left mcdonald's for the shuttle bus to office, i took the same bus as them and i decided to pretend never see them...so i walked very fast in order to avoid takin the same lift...

i reached office first..

then he started using office's msn, msn me sayin he saw me at mcdonald's..but i was busy with my phone...and i asked why he din call me, he said he was with another gal, if he call me it would be awarkard..but tat gal told him tat she thought she came between both of us, as she said we must be went to work togetherly..

(my thoughts: if we were to go work together, why would we queue at different queues and why he would go to the shuttle bus with her after gettin the food instead of waitin for me?)

anyway, after this incident i decided to stop talkin to him, keep away from him...

things got worst...to all people in the office doesnt know tat he's attached but knew tat, the gal was attached..only a few of us knew tat he's attached..

so almost the whole office thought tat we are in relationship all the while..and now this gal came between us despite the fact that she's attached, so the worst i can imagine people saying her is "shameless 3rd party"..

i did get someone to "warn" her about the bad names or remarks, but she seems okie with it..and continue getting closer to him...

and yes, i admit everything started because i stopped talking to him...therefore i'm at fault, i should be the one taking the blame..neither him nor her should be taking the blame...

who am i to be angry or even jealous? i found it so funny..i know i'm crowded with the title "dump & dumb gal" in office...i'm dump by my boyfriend for another gal whom is attached and my boyfriend fool around infront of me yet i'm still so ignorance...

Been waiting for 2 years since the set up of this webby..and finally boss is here..wahahaha..

thanks to kikilala for your info..like waking me up in my beautiful sat morning at 8am telling me my boss is here?~! wahahah...

lately been very busy at work..working in bank is always 24/7 thot in operation lifes would be better..you are WRONG!in addition, my team was in deep shit for the damn whole month..we had lost like 40k this month..holy shit..and am involve in some case...argh...

it must be karma! been cursing and swearing too much, must be!argh...

as for relationship wise, still in a mess the more i wanna cut it out, the messier i goes..shitty...why am i always involved in all these mess? argh...i tot this time round i found someone but ended up belongs to others..oh well..i dun fight with others..no worries...

love always..

Recently been reading news about Edi..Personally felt that he's pretty pitiful..

Wat's wrong with having a damn hobby of taking photos or videos? He aint the one uploading all those shit and yet gotta take the blame? aint those gals willingly too? he's too charming to reject and he jolly well knows it... if the gals were forced, why are they in slience till now?

judges comes from public and media accusing his wrongs..but wat's wrong?? rape? i doubt though... if wouldnt media been pushin, accusing and watsoever stop?

they are indirectly ruining other people's life, family, career, relations and all...just put yourself into other's shoes, would u like to see people viewing your daughter's or son's nude photos? gossiping or accusing them?

oh well, i do understand this damn system works like when there is demand, there's supply..people LOVES to poke their noses into other people's businesses, therefore such news are highly made aware of...

anyway, it's just my own thinking...

samie @ singapore