Whatever Cosmic force that governs our fate has brought someone back into my life that I had thought was lost to me forever. I have spent the last decade trying to find out what had happend to her throught the internet and some old friends that still live in that part of the world..Now that we found each other again all these old feelings that I had successfully buried have resurfaced with a vengeance which leaves me at somewhat of a loss as I have a girlfriend and she is herself married. We only have contact through email so I guess its safe enough and of course I'm not a complete scum bag and have no wish to break up someones marriage. but I have to admit that I think about her all the time which leads me to feel that I'm living a bit of a lie. What to do eh? It's an odd feeling being ectsaticaly happy and horribly depressed at the same time.
All this came about well after I had given up all hope of ever knowing anything at all about her, we were very young when we were together and she was the love of my life who I lost due to some fantasy I had about coming back to the States to find a vocation in life, I have regreted this decision ever since I made it but I did not have the resources to get back, this made me a bit crazy so I went off and tried to forget everything about her and the old country..let this be a lesson to you that read these words..Sieze the motherf^&#n Day.
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