Long time no seen.

So I hope you all are allright :)

I'm okay, my life is fine. I didn't get to the school I wanted but I'll try harder next year and I'll figure out some other schools too where I want to study.
Mavbe a teacher, maybe a social-worker or something, maybe a singer :D

I havent told this too many people, heh, but I did sing up for Finlands Idols -competition :D Dunno if I actually go there, it depends. I think I go there but only if my boyfriend comes to support me there, because it's gonna be long queue and waiting, and I don't wanna be there alone. And I need him to be there for me, because I hate masses of people if I have to be with them, because I'm sometimes kind of lonely wolf :P

But so, I do sing, and I have always wanted to be a singer.  And it's huge step for me even to try to Idols, only problem is that I truly want to be a singer and sing for people, but I hate to think that I would be a selebrity if  I got enough far in that show... But the truth is there is not possibility to get money from singing, if you are not known, because if one want's to succeed on singing-career one's  gotta accept the being known too. And possibility that you get to gossib-magazines because someone who you sometime knew tells things about you or you do something stuppid so you end up to magazine.

So I do want to be a singer, get enough money for being able to pay my bills and help my parents in their situation (my dad's cancer-treatment is propably gonna pay a lot...) , maybe afterwarts help somehow others too...

I don't know even if I go there, to Idols thing and I have allready though about lot of things :D We have even talked about it with my boyfriend: what if I get far on Idols, what happens then, can we handle it as a couple,  what happens to me: am I gonna be a diva or so... I don't want to chance if that kind of huge thing happens that I actually get far... I just want to be a normal girl and have a lot of kids with my love :D I do know that if I could lose my love for being a singer, I would happily get of the courier. It's like a winning a lottery to find a man with who you actually know is possibiolity to live your life till youre both old and still  happily together. In this world it doesn't happen that often so I do know how lucky I am with my love.

So lots of interesting things are happening :)

And I tried to get a job, as a substitute teacher and a assistant. Only problem is that they are trying to get worker for whole year until next summer but I can only be until Christmas so propably I don't get the job, non of those two.  But it has been good exercising to write a job applications :) I even wrote a full CV for me :)

But this is how I am doing :D Sorry for not being here so often...

Happy summer for everyone!!

Oh my...

I tried to art -focus school for studying to be a class teacher.  I had to write a essay about one important art-thing in my life that has influenced me and why did I want to get that school. After it I had examen that everyone who wanted to the school went. After the test there is suitability test where gets only 80 persons from candidates.

Well, there must be over 1000 persons who want's to the school, and only 80 gets invite for suitability test. Want to know where were I on that group???? I'm one of the 80 :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

So, I got a chance for getting to the school of dreams :D How wonderful is that?!?!? :D  Now I gotta do a expression sample about what can I do, play music, do some other arts?? And tell how much I want there. And there's group part too, where we must do something as a group.

So wish me luck!!! I'm nervous, I want there so much!!!!

I haven't wrote here lately, sorry :P

I'm living now here in Posio with my boyfriend, hes father and little-brother. It's sometimes hard, since I'm used to live on my own since I was 17 years, so now I gotta get along with three men... It's okay, it's not so hard, but sometimes I need my own time. Still... I'm already waiting for that day when me and my love are living together, just us. No one else :D Only gotta wait for Christmas time and after that we probably move :)

I haven't got a job.. And I wonder if I even have one on this little place I'm living... I hope I get something to do.

Yep, nothing on my head now, too tired to think :D But at least something :) And for that you'll know I'm still alive ;)

I got the grade for my graduation work :D
Number is 4 when the scale is from 1 to 5 so it's great number :D :D:D

It's all over now, no more that school :) New life and so on.

I live now with my boyfriend. It has gone well, even that it's still frightening to start a life with someone when I have lived alone since I was 17 years... And it's not all "wonderful and bright", since now I'm actually living with someone. Most important is that we love each other and we talk a lot. I hope it's enough, and doing our best. This is the first truly serious relationship for both of us so we just have to live it trough and learn from everything :D

I hope best for us :) And I've got a feeling it's not pointless :)

Great spring for everyone!!!

-Jaana-

Finally something good to tell :)

I got my graduation work done and ready and I have been left it to teacher for appraise. So no more stress about that thing, just gotta prepare the presentation about the work and that's it.

Another lucky new is that I've now got driver's license :D I got it yesterday :P And the interesting thing is that I actually had TWO driving test :D I messed up the first one, because I didn't notice STOP-singe... And I assure I didn't even see it, I just don't understand why.. The supervisor that were on that driving test wanted me to drive there again and then I saw it... God I were embarrassed and probably because I hadn't slept too much on many nights I cried long time... And I cried because people saw I was crying so I just thought what the heck, I already cried in front of them, so it's gotta be okay. And if I'm so emotionally I must get to used it sometimes.

But what is the story that I still have my license?? The lady on the driving school knew I want to come to Posio to my boyfriend and be able to be here for a long time, so she asked from the inspection office, if they had times for driving test available.... And they had :D And because the inspector that I had on the first test give me only three driving times (one time is 25min) they were able to give me the driving lessons before new driving test and because I knew what went wrong (all the things, he told me a lot more than that stop-sing thing..) I remembered what to improve and I drove much better. So this time he gave me the card :):):)

So, how many has done two driving tests at the same day? ;) I was so lucky that it was possible to have the new test at same day and still managed to go to the right buss to go :D

So everything is quite good now, I'm happily visiting my love here about one week, then I'll go to my family's home. There I'm going to drive car as much as possible, gotta rehearse it!!

I am starting to turn a new page on my life :) Let us hope it's gonna be happy from now on too...
Lucky to your life, everyone!!!!!!!!! And lot's of happiness!!