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  Saturday, May 17, 2008 11:36PM / Standard Entry / Members only
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  Okay, it has been awhile since I have written about me and how mom is doing. Mom is getting to the point when she can not stand or walk. She tries, but the pain is too much and she looses her balance. Her doctors appoinment is still 11 days away. She has been on bed rest for most part. And now I have been very busy taking all care of her..

  And at this same time I find a good number of my friends are missing or dead. Some have found a way to send me emails, by going to a bigger town and using the internet cafe. I went yesterday to get my appilcaition for my passport. As soon as mom gets taken care of and I start working again. I will also see about in home care for mom. I will be on vacation all over Asia.. where ever I can afford to go at that time. I will know how to plan more in September. But this with China... I do not want too many days to go by anymore and not meet my friends again or for first time for that matter.

  She knows how strongly I feel on this issue. I can not keep letting things stand in my way anymore. I have often never been allowed to do all I want. That has taught me not to want much at all. The disapoinment is just too much.

  Lately, I have been having chest pains. I know I am putting to much strain on my self.. with worry and stress. 35 is too young for this kind of pain.

  So, if it doesn't go away on it's own, I will see about it.. May just be stress and nerves. My friend next door has been a relief for me. She came over here last night and we had a long talk. I think she was wanting to escape her reality for a while. She is a very powerful young girl. Her husband to be is Chinese and she is white. They have two beautiful Children...Randon who is just starting kindergarden at the school I told them about.. and Dillon who they call pickles.. haha.. he is so sweet. Both the boys love me to death and when I am there they are all over me.. the youngest one, Dillon, calls me momma haha..

  When I leave they cry so much. Breaks my heart. But I know I am not their mother, so I leave them..

   

  She has been having problems also. Her sister was suppose to stay with her for two months.. it has been now almost a year. She has a new born baby and a little girl about 5 years old. She is back to drinking allot and drugs we suspect. Not good under my friends roof.

  Her mother also stays there, but she does more then her part there in the house hold. So, my friend doesn't feel bad about her mom being there. But her sister has to go.

  Her brother is also there.. he just got out of jail. For a reason I have not asked. I feel I will be too nervous around him if I knew.  A 4 bedroom house that is occupied by 9 people.. Thats to many. If the sister goes then 3 will leave.. and then there is enough room. Bairly..

  So, that is the update on me.. wierd huh? imagne normal to abnormal in a few short weeks.

   

  Love and Peace always be with us all..!!

  Jeanne

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