long time no blog!

haven't been doing major major pieces of work cos raising nicholas heru on its own is pretty much a major major piece of work... nonetheless... managed to get stuff like this done:

cancer in the city (national geographic/tvb) - jan



s k y tao vs privacy commissioner (decision) - feb


read the case here

baby raising - march/april



commercial - may



... getting a baby to smile or do something on cue for a photographer to capture is quite a task ... im glad nicholas heru pulled it off!

anyhoo - till next time!

x

Video: http://youtu.be/t09y1YRVCvw

Video: http://www.wheel2wheel.tv/home.php

above - stuff keeping me busy during the bump

below - what the bump was all about

leonardo da vinci's babe in womb:



my attempt at understanding my babe in my womb:



mini me (male version) @ 5 1/2 weeks old:

 

I’ve been a lot moody and depressed, if anything I allowed myself to drop to a “safe” level of dark, somber and negative mindset simply because I allowed my surroundings, situation and the so-called “friends” consume my productive, positive and pro-active side of me without realizing that these people are only capable of doing just that.

They feed off the demise of another and like vultures take, grab, step and hinder that person; stripping them away from any chance of possibility or future prospect simply out of pure envy, jealousy and for the most part lazy, illogical and disturbingly insecure.

I had a great day yesterday – for once something shot through me like a thunderbolt; unleashing a world of non-stop epiphanies, one after the other until I came home exhausted from the whole day of enlightenment to wake up a few hours ago all ready to be the usual “go-getter” self.

I thought I’d finally put down in words and in blog the mental mindset that has aided me to find it within myself to stand up again.

Over the past few months, whilst I slowly watched the destruction and downward spiral of myself (albeit it allowing it as well to happen) I turned a lot to theories and inner reflection (not to mention a lot of numerology [by the way I have the most amazing and accurate numerology report reading software so if you want yours just email me sky at skytao.com], Buddhism, self-help and silence) and one of the main things that really aided me in being able to accept what was happening to me at present was this:

Sky, this is a time when you have an opportunity to make great progress on the spiritual plane.  And that is where your focus needs to be.  

Your spiritual identity is expanding, and one of the side effects of this development is that you will most likely feel a strong urge to make major changes on the more practical, material plane; the kind of changes that probably do not make a lot of sense to other people.  That is fine.  In fact, that is exactly what you can expect to happen.  It’s as if you are driven to change your life from the ground up.  While you must maintain common sense and perspective, this inner urge to change is exactly what you need.

The changes we are talking about here, Sky, may not be completely painless.  You should be prepared to defend your reasoning.  Some people you are emotionally close to will try to stop you and, if that doesn’t work, may blame you for their unhappiness. 

Difficult as that may be, Sky, you can’t afford to let yourself be tied down.  At the same time, you should move cautiously.  Don’t be impulsive.  Take your time.  But don’t be afraid to make the necessary changes.  You will be tearing down your tower, in order to build a bigger one.  This is a natural process and part of your personal spiritual development.  When all is said and done, you will not regret the changes you make during this time.  

This is a time of spiritual transformation.  The key ingredients for this period are self examination, faith, and confidence.

 

That part in bold really said it all and so I’ve managed to somewhat still keep a sense of self that I was determined not to let or more so that I fought very hard not to actually break me inside.

Which led me to start researching on this ideology of myself (yeah yeah I know very narcissistic of me recently but hey when you have TransUnion ripping through your personal data and stating on paper that you’re male; you can hardly blame me for trying to identify myself with… myself!) and I came across this idea of being somewhat of a Wounded Healer.

Carl Jung theory and it’s from this that I have been able to “bounce” back so to speak or as a close friend said to me… (and yes I am quoting you you know who you are when I say this!) “walk into a pile of shit and come out of it smelling like flowers”.

"The artist is not a person endowed with free will who seeks his own ends, but one who allows art to realize its purposes through him. As a human being he may have moods and a will and personal aims, but as an artist he is "man" in a higher sense - he is "collective man," a vehicle and moulder of the unconscious psychic life of mankind." (from 'Psychology and Literature', 1930)

I’m not going to go into too much detail about the theory but basically (I laugh now when I think back at how everything I read and do somehow manages to connect to each other) TransUnion really messed up my personal data making it TransPersonal (and believe it or not this is actually a keyword to Jungian’s wounded healer theory!!!) to which I have done my bit and announced, blogged, spoken, put forth whatever makes my case TransInternational – and now I am going to let things unfold as and when they will because I’m so TransOverIt and in my mind I’ve TransOverDoneIt.

Fingers crossed over the next few weeks TransUnion can just TransFER and then all will be happy happy happy and I can go back to building my brand new bigger tower!!!