How i being, here & now?

13 days left, leaving the company i work for 9 yrs, so many lessons play back, then, slowly, change my perception to wider way, no body wanna change because myself refuse to change first without the knowing of balance, each of us mistranslate massage and react in negative mind set,  the days i work with thankful heart, the reward from boss KEEP rise-up, happy boss, happy me, appearance shows deep down believes do u love your job?  do u love yourself? appreciate every work u did yet? appreciate yourself yet?