Since the last time I wrote a blog, so much has happened...
1. I'm single and partying like a fucking whore now hahahaahaha....
2. I've been catching up with my old friends and meeting new people
3. Partying it up...oh yeah!
4. My friend who's been avoiding me for almost a year actually came out on Valentine's day to say hi, but we're not really "friendly" yet
5. And to save the best for last, ex boyfriend is now dating and with one of my girlfriends...everyone says it's fucked up and I believe it is, but she and I have become a little bit closer than before and I still talk to the ex.  But him and I are not really like friends, just cool with each other.  Of course people feeling sorry for me, but whatever cuz I'm having my own fun.
6. I met someone, but we're just dating and not serious.  You know just fucking around hahahaha...having freaky fun hehehe
So yes...party party party...I think I needa cut down on the drinking...yeah right!

It's wonderful that people realize that we need to change how our society is.  I'm glad that Obama is the new president.  I'm glad that many propositions were passed that should be.  But there are some that I totally disagree on: Prop 8.  I just can't believe how American's are so narrow-minded.  I have quite a bit of gay friends and they deserve all the rights of any straight person.  What makes them different than anyone else?  Just because they have different sexual interests?  How is that all of our business to judge them for being themselves?  How do the rest of us have the right to tell homosexuals that they are going to be governed by the rest of the rest of society on who they can marry and who they can't?  This just violates their freedom in being an American.  Society has not accepted difference in each individual, which is also my next concern.  I'm really glad that majority of this country do not see that colored people are not worthy or capable of doing what a white man can do, but I've heard on the newsradio that there have been some hate crimes after the election of Pres. Obama.  One incident was that the only black family in the neighborhood had their property vandalized, as well as Obama signs that went missing and some vandalized.  If this is not hate crime then I don't know what else it could be.  The worse thing of all was that there are actually many ASIANS (particularly the Vietnamese community) that voted for McCain instead of Obama.  The reason is going to sound as ridiculous as it really is: it's due to the fact that Obama is BLACK!!!  Yes!  Vietnamese citizens living in San Jose, CA of USA said they did not want to vote for Obama because he was black!  Seriously, who do they think they are when they say something like that?  Are they white?  NO!  They are VIETNAMESE, colored people just like the rest of us who are not European-Americans.  They didn't vote for McCain because of his political ways, they voted for McCain because he is NOT BLACK.  It took centuries for the white man to realize that we're all created equal.  Now we have to deal with Asians: teach them that we are all humans and race doesn't divide us.  I really do not understand how our society is anymore because you think that people have more common sense, but we don't.  We love to hate those who are not us, and we tend to worship those who are not us.  But he ones we worship ARE us?  Does this make any sense?  Of course not!  I know that I should be happy that Obama won, but it makes me mad to know that these people, the ones who voted for McCain because he's white, are still out there because they are going to one day fuck us all over.  They are the ones who are making bad judgement and it'll ruin us in the long run.  I hope this will not be the future of America.

I'm just too busy with school to deal with all this bs about friends and what they think and how they want to judge me.  It's not the first time that I've had friend issues because I've been betrayed by 2 ex-friends before and they were just not worth my time.  For the past year, my two friends I've know for years broke up and I feel like one of them is blaming me for hooking them up in the first place.  Or maybe I just remind her of him because the guy is my friend and no matter what will always be my friend.  I know she's been avoiding seeing me and everytime we did see each other, she would try to avoid me and sit away from me, like she has to hide from me and why?  It's really stupid, but at the same time she is heart broken.  Plus the problem with this is that I feel like it's affecting my friendship with the whole crew.  I know they will side with her more, but only because they are all much closer, since I mostly do my own stuff.  I try to keep in touch with them, but I find it hard at times, since I don't really have much in common with them.  Actually to think of it, I don't have much in common with any of my friends.  I just can't relate to anyone, not even my own boyfriend.  So the whole bottom line of this is...she's avoiding me because I'm friends with her ex.  She also believes that I'm the one who hooked them up, since I knew him from college and did in some way introduce them to each other, but I did not push them together.  So the question is does she blame me for them meeting each other?  In her mind, probably yes, but in my mind, they are their own person and I cannot control who they should get with and not get with.
My other issue is my boyfriend and his crew.  I find that they can be really shady.  I've always known that, but they are really cool friends to hang out with.  But after the incident on Saturday night, I don't know what they're really going to think of me.  I basically thought that it was wrong of my bf to talk shiet about his best friend to his crew of friends, even though they are all friends.  It's really stupid because if I knew that my friend was talking crap about me to my potential ex-friends, I would be furious because how can I have a friend that would do something like that to me.  So I thought he was wrong, how they were all wrong in ganging up with each other to talk shiet about him just because he's hurt about how he's not really part of the crew.  I actually think they're all wrong and have treated each other wrong.  Just wrong wrong wrong.  It may be better that they aren't friends anymore, that way no more ridiculous drama.  But of course my bf has to make up with his best friend because they are best friends no matter what.  They've been through thick and thin.  But there are so many things that I disagree on them that it's hard to become a closer friend.  They probably dislike how I am because I'm different, esp. how they think I defended someone they don't like.
From all of this, I recently realized that I can't trust my bf.  He will always side with his friends, even though they are wrong along with him.  How can I be with a guy that I can't trust that wouldn't back me up whenever there are conflicts?  The good thing is that I got him to admit he was wrong for leaving me at Petco with our dogs for almost 2 hrs. when he said he'll be gone for 30 mins.  He also appologized to his best friend for outing him out to their crew.  Maybe that's a start that he can realize he does do things that are wrong.  But he'll always think like the rest of his crew and it really bothers me because I know I won't have anyone to back me up in a conflict.  I don't have a companion, a bodyguard, and most of all, a friend.

Just before I watched the 1st debate that was on Friday, Sept. 26, 2008, I didn't care who was going to be the next president because our government is soooo screwed up now that no matter what we do now, our economy will not be better for the next year or more.  But after watching the debate, I have to say that Obama really impressed me.  I might be a little biased because I never liked the Republicans, but McCain's performance tells all: his conduct, his statements, his EVERYTHING toward Obama was very unprofessional.  I'm very sure that all the Americans and non-Americans who watched the debate will also agree with me.  All McCain could do was look away from Obama like he was extremely irritable towards him, but Obama always gave him the eye contact and would address issues directly towards McCain.  Also I find that it's a fact that McCain has been aside Pres. Bush (soon to be former, thank goodness!) and every decision that has been made, even though McCain has disagreed with Bush at times, has just been disastrous on and on and on.  So why would we want another Republican to run our country when it's the Republicans who have failed us tremendously?  No more Republicans!  The biggest problems I have with McCains and other Republicans are they are too conservative about running this government.  It's obvious that we need to change the ways we do things because if we don't, we end up becoming out of date and we put our environment in danger.  I was really upset at McCain for wanting to drill offshore to "temporarily" provide relief for gasoline prices and shortage.  Obviously if we're going to do that, we'll never invest enough money to research on energy efficient vehicles and power.  He just doesn't seem to understand how we humans work.  Humans are the most stupid beings on this planet because all we do is rely on our brain to do all the work without thinking about consequences.  We cannot survive like this because we're just killing ourselves, and with McCain in the White House, that's exactly what McCain will "continue" to do. 
       There have been complaints about how Obama (as well as McCain) hasn't necessarily given any answers as to how they are going to get our economy out of a deep hole.  The big problem that no one understands is "We're such in a deep hole at the moment that no one is this world can get us out of the deep hole."  So I believe it's OK that they don't have a direct answer because there is no answer.  Actually, the answer is with all of humanity.  We cannot rely on the President to help us out!  They are not God, and there is no God that is available to help.  We can only help ourselves and we all need to work together to do that, which is impossible.  Why impossibe? Because we humans are selfish, greedy, self-centered, careless, and HELPLESS.
       But after all of this, I'm 100% loyal and dedicated to Obama for President, and we all need a new leader who will address other issues rather than paying billions to trillions of dollars to help the non-ending war.  We're suffocating and we need a better change.  Obama is that better change.

Everyone's been telling me about how high fructose corn syrup (HFCS) is bad for you because it causes obesity and other complications to those who are immunocompromised to it.  So a large population of Americans began to cut down on food and beverage products that contain HFCS.  The truth is that it's made from CORN!!!  It's no more harmful than sugar or honey or artificial sweetners.  HFCS are natural!!!  Recent studies demonstrated that HFCS doesn't cause obesity.  The truth is that gluttony is what causes obesity and death, especially in America because we Americans do not know how to eat conservatively and we tend to wast food.  Don't be stupid and believe what others have to say about HFCS.  Know the facts at sweetsurprise.com.