i'm really feeling this song right now..."listen to the song here in my heart. a melody i start but can't complete..." i always start writing, but can never seem to finish my thoughts without feeling embarassed...ashamed...everything sounds so trivial once it's all written out in front of me...

...or maybe it's just because i understand you're not really listening...

"i am alone at a crossroad. i'm not at home in my own home. and i tried and tried to say what's on my mind. you should have known. now i'm done believing you. you don't know what i'm feeling. i'm more than what you've made of me..."

just barely...exams were brutal...even way into the christmas holidays now, i still feel anxiety from it...sooo not normal...

on the bright side, got the chance to go to the jay chou concert last night. he sings really well live! er...guess i shouldn't really be surprised about that...

it was his first time coming to toronto for a concert. he brought 南拳媽媽 to perform as his special guests. they sing really well too. i thoroughly enjoyed the whole concert. the only thing that would have made the whole thing more perfect would have been if he sang the song 珊瑚海...I love that song...and Lara (who originally sings this duet with him) is part of 南拳媽媽, so she was there as well. i am very puzzled and a little-more-than-slightly sad they didn't sing it...but what can you do...it was still a rockin' good concert! hope he comes back again soon =)

was checking out movie reviews on rotten tomatoes just now, and happened upon reviews for finishing the game. turns out it was released on dvd last month!! yay!!! i missed it when it screened here last year due to exams, but now i finally get a chance to watch it.

the subject line says it all...

why do i always do things that are 吃力不討好?

you don't show any appreciation for it, and it's just more stress for myself...

-my friends (a lot!!!) i know i haven't been making much effort lately...i will try harder, i promise...

-going to the park...can't even remember the last time i sat on a swing and just mindlessly floated to away...

-biking...hahaha, i know i used to joke that you guys were like drill sergeants on the trails, but i actually miss it....

-walking...sigh, the good ol' days of convential transportation...i miss going to k-town and just browsing the supermarkets...

on another note...so random tonight...happened to go to karaoke and a friend was in the room across from us, but i didn't know it until i chatted with him on msn afterwards...so random. have you guys ever seen the music video for eason chan's 十面埋伏? felt like that...have any of you experienced that before?