one last thought before i can sleep...respect to my ex-gfSSSSS

this is a scary thought: u spend two years loving a person, u spend time living with this person, and then this person leaves you, and you decided these two years are a complete waste of time. but what is considered a complete waste of time? if u are able to change this person to be better before he/she leaves you or this person changes to be a better person after he/she leaves you, will u still consider those 2 years a complete waste of time? or should u need some kind of reward to prevent u from feeling that spending time loving a person that leaves you is a waste of time. but how do u measure reward in a relationship? gifts? love? number of time he/she helped me wiped the floor? the amount of time spent with me? a marriage? a simple "thank you"?i really want to declare one thing right here, right now, RESPECT to my ex-gfSSSSS, they have all contributed in shaping me to become a better person. i know the end results of the relationships had not benefited them , but making someone better is magical, you don't see that very often, i hope you can appreciate your effort, my ex-gfSSSSS, don't just feel spending time with me was some bad investment.stop taking out your calculators and try to determine whether it has been a waste of time plus effort or not. i want to love you all back but it is impossible anymore, there is no trust anymore, no faith anymore. so why not just think back and deal with the time lost with a smile? you have changed me into a better person, appreciate your efforts, and for everyone else, respect to my ex-gfSSSSS