Friday, Jul 4, 2008 10:44AM /
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i am closing this blog.....this blog is going nowhere...
this blog has nothing worth staying.....just myself creating troubles for myself inside my head
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Wednesday, Jul 2, 2008 3:12AM /
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i spent my whole day inside the theatre, thinking i could have been spending today with my wife if i hadn't that mental meltdown 3 months ago. regretting and losing focus the whole day. i put up the ring for an auction in Yahoo, since i can remember my ex ex gf reminding me to be nice to myself, i take it literally and so i decided to sell this ring that my ex ex gf doesn't give a shit about and then get some cash for myself to buy something nice, i am thinking an asus eee pc mini notebook, doing what my ex ex gf really wanted me to do, be nice to myself. i just don't need the ring to sit in my home like a trophy to remind me what i have lost. sad it has to go this way, but i don't have any hard feelings seeing the ring go away, maybe it will drop into more suitable hands, so be it.
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Tuesday, Jul 1, 2008 1:28PM /
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yes i agree that my post last night is a bit angry and thank you for your comments. but there is this tendency for people to remain single and try to create joys for themselves in remaining single and there is this huge community of single professional women to reinforce each other to sh away from love. which is kind of scary, it's like some sort of cult.and ppl just intended to hang on to their friends rather than lovers because friends are hassle free. but to me, doing so just proves you are a coward and selfish because you just want to save everything for yourself and not share it with others. because u can get some much in modern so easily, especially materialistic possessions, entertainment, nice food, and so little time to enjoy these after work, that u want it all alone and hassle free. so modern life don't need building families anymore. i don't necessarily mean families with children, u just mean families with 2 persons and a home. and since there are more and more good examples of people remain single and getting satisfied with their life, and love is getting more and more like economics more than a relationship, i guess families will get extinct soon. so caring and loving another ppl is hassle, and ppl only need a tv and some brand name products to live their lives. modern life is twisted.
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Tuesday, Jul 1, 2008 1:21AM /
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the ring bought me a meeting with her finally, we had a long chat, but she doesn't show any interest in returning to the good old days, and insists on telling me the joys of living alone , and how one person exist for himself/herself only. and i keep on telling her my existence wont be complete without her, and she tells me again a person exist for himself only. and tells me to give her time, so i guess all this is a very kind 'NO'. so i am now entering a long probation period, a probation without end, since i need to change her values towards life, and i need her to believe once again that like is for two instead of one. and she also goes on like, if she want to watch a film alone, or go walk in the malls alone, then don't bother, until she FEELS comfortable, then she may want to go out with me, and also states that if suddenly she dates someone else, i shouldn't be disappointed. clearly, her feelings for me is over. and now i am going to stop messing with her, i took back the ring, and leave it for someone that truly appreciates someone by her side instead of my ex ex gf who thinks that she doesn't give a shit if someone is beside her. probation periods are full of pressure, and since she isn't the only babe around, i'll take my chances with someone else.i just don't like her attitude. i am sincere, and then she says 'show me that you are sincere' and says at the same time 'i may or may not go out with you, i will not tell you where i live in now, i am 34 soon and i don't really need love like a little girl anymore'. ok since you are not that interested, i'll save my efforts for someone more encouraging and deserving. if she is fine living alone, then go ahead. if she want to play tough, go ahead, i am not going to call her, sms her, email her again. this is totally crap. don't BS me with that 'give me time' shit, just tell me you are not interested. and don't put me in a probation, i deserve some respect, and i am not an employee. i want to give you my love, and you shut me out in a probation, WTF.
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Monday, Jun 30, 2008 3:14AM /
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i watch it tonight and it just worsens your loneliness. it's a nice film, romantic throughout, reese witherspoon is charming.thought some may think she is fat or something, but she is already very nice, according to my standards. and the ending is just so perfect, you don't want to leave the tv and return to reality. i sometimes really lose myself in films, because the world is just so perfect, so magical. although it is the same in the real world, you'll just need to be brave and crazy to make things happen. yes reese witherspoon is charming. the role fits her nicely, though is hard to imagine such a charming lady doctor would be out of admirers. nice story, just a llittle too perfect to come true. and you can really feel the romance.
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