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Thursday, May 17, 2012 4:14PM / Members only
J: "What do you want?"
Odilia: "What do you mean?"
J: "Why do I meet this people and why I cannot handle this? Why do I feel grievance instead of power and evil within myself? That is the question but you are of the kind that only poses new questions instead of the answer thin me wants. I regret losing control but how to get it back so that I can make people happy again."
Odilia: "Gaining back control is a matter of choice. You decide so and you do it! You don`t try, you don`t wish, you don`t hope. You just do it! But the question is why should you make people happy? Trying to feed people happiness is a never ending journey that leads to no succes.
People are people.. sometimes they are randomly in our life as to fill the world we are creating within ourselves sometimes they come around on purpose to mirror our own self so we can face our errors (in thinking - as there are no other errors - Just experiences!)
And the real happiness that you can give to people around you is your own bliss.
However were you high when you wrote this? or just the long term side effects? :D"
J: "Yeah, you are totally right, main thinking error, this was more a long term effect, seldomly happens, since I smoke it everyday but after 2 days of withdrawal I really get DESPARATE. Gee, you're really good"
J: "Why did I fell down and why didn't I stood up. why don't I take responsibility like leaders should do? Why have I become evil? They made me angry, but is winning an option, otherwise only full subordinance will remain."
Odilia: "Leader is merely a word that ego embrace for its own pride. Don`t fall into such traps!
The question is not why you fell down. You fall down because you fall down. Sometimes a stone in front of you that you never saw makes you stumble and fall down. And many times you fall down again and again stumbling on the very same stone until one day when you are tired of falling down, you decide to keep your eyes wide awake for the next time you face the same stone. For you cannot avoid what you are not able to see. And you cannot see when you are not awake!
Thus no winning, no subordinance! just awareness and it`s side effects.. peace and calm :D"
J: "I use the word leader to compensate my own masochism, and to enlarge the dramatic effect, it was a real leader who has fallen, remember? But indeed, when I smoke less weed, for example diminishing it to at a max. 3 joints a day, I will not have that red-eyed blurred mind and will see the stone coming. When the stone still hits me I will not take it so dramatically. When I smoke less the world is not so dramatic/happy & intense but also without real challenges, except avoiding some stones. Indeed maybe I should step out of this addictive dreaming in life and start living the dream."
J: "Is it possible to close this door of perception? And why can other people handle an open mind. I cannot stand that rationally I cannot get my feelings and choices in life. You're a woman, so maybe you are better in this. Sometimes want to go back before this happened, but time has changed now and have to deal with it and want to go on."
Odilia: "I belive in this life, in this society mainly there are no rational things no matter how much they try to make them look so. People run around and arange their life in various ways that their suroundings, society, induced as must have, must be, must mean. By the time they realise that life has nothing to do with this arangements they are about to die and everything is over.
Sometimes circumstances will suffle the information we have about reality and we get totally lost and confuse trying to make an order in it. Sometimes substances produce the same effect. However there are always the side effects that drag you into a vicious circle of wonder. Questioning yourself what was before? the eg or the chiken?
Whenever you become aware of it though.. stop! Just be in the silence! Observe it`s beauty and it`s answers!
We can never go back nor forward just from here on... Quit living in the past or dreaming of a better future. Start with your present! Only in the present you have the power of choice."
J: "Exactly, we are driven by instinct, covered by reasons, a flash in eternity, but part of it. Think the egg was first, but totaly doesn't matter. Maybe I should quit totally because I am always very busy with this kind of questions when stoned. I can choose for it... And I want to thank you, very good psychological consult with real answers from high I&EQ WOMAN, wow. You are really good in this, no wonder people are asking you to help!!THANX"
Odilia: "Now my ego feels good :))
However, do you mind if I post this conversation on my website? Annonimously of course. Maybe other people can learn something out of it. :D"
J: You can do what you want, you are free as a bird...(Although this has a negative connotation in dutch, I intend it to be a positive remark) yes ofcourse :)
Feeling Harmony
J: "It was just another mental crack in the brain, as you know I am many of the one psychiatric guys on the [.....] :) Now I am healed again."
Odilia: "We are never healed until we understand that we were never wounded in the first place :D"
J: "Yeah, somewhere I just like it to be victim. Being happy is boring...:("1 views Share 
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The 5th Rotary Art Fair
Saturday, Mar 31, 2012 7:00PM / Members only
The 5th Rotary Art Fair in 2012 was hold at Evoluon in Eindhoven. Besides design and exposition of renowned galleries from home and abroad, for the benefit of Heppie Foundation and the pleasure of cocreating, together with the pianist Olga van der Pennen and the guitarist Giuseppe Coppola, we assambled as well a varied musical program.
Videos will be added soon!
"Wat een mooie evenement was het vanmiddag! en natuurlijk voor de goede doel "Stichting happie" Odilia Carmen Chirica zong geweldig onder een prachtige gitaarbegeleiding van Giuseppe Coppola" Olga van der Pennen9 views Share
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Singing & Fun
Sunday, Jan 29, 2012 4:00AM / Members only
Singing & Fun is a an event created to share musical moments between music lovers. At this moment the setting is a friendly "House Concert" while enjoying and sharing nice food, drinks, talks and singing together or for eachother, receiving genuine feedback as a way to musicaly improve ourselves and loose the fear of stage and singing for public. Later on, who knows, it might grow into something bigger.Next Event Singing & Fun VI29 September 2012, 7pm
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2012 Will The Annunaki Return?
Sunday, Dec 25, 2011 7:00AM / Members only
Will The End Come In 2012? Zecharia Sitchin Lecture and Slide Presentation. What will happen in 2012? The End? The Return? Will prophecies come true? In view of the growing speculation concerning 2012 - mostly using and misusing Zecharia Sitchin's revelations regarding the planet Nibiru and the Anunnaki - Zecharia has agreed to speak out and give his authoritative information on the subject in an exclusive 2-hour lecture and slide presentation. With a mass of evidence, he analyzes Mayan lore and ancient calendars, and guides the listener through biblical prophecies, to arrive at startling conclusions and precise predictions regarding the End of Days. more on Amazon34 views Share
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Faux Depart [Falsa Plecare: Cercetare Asupra Experientelor Din Apropierea Mortii]
Sunday, Dec 18, 2011 7:00AM / Members only
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