2007-08-17 5:27PM /
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Been a strange summer, actually....
Mama D. (a wonderful older lady that I've adopted as my extended family mama) called and told me before I heard it from anyone else that she was diagnosed with lung cancer and was starting treatments ASAP. Been pulling for her ever since. She's one strong lady going through all the chemo and everything. I don't deal well with "cancer", period, because I lost my maternal grandmother to cancer and I don't think I ever gotten over the fact that I wasn't able to be there for her. I went through first shock then denial phase with Mama D.'s news for about a week. Made me realized that I needed to work on this issue and I snapped myself out of that zombie like mode and trudged on with life going ons around me.
Then I took 10 days off to visit my friend in PA at the end of July. 2nd day gone, I get an email informing me that my pc is dead at home. Managed to get home and got that figured out as soon as I can, because I had work that required my pc working properly. Then it's off to play catch up game and still have more catching up to do before fall semester starts on 20th. (I'm taking Calculus 1, just so everyone's warned ahead of time that I'd be hitting the books instead of hitting the internet.)
Then last week, one of the online games I've participated for 2+ years brought news that one of the old timers in the game passed on from throat cancer. She was only 31... It is all I can do to keep myself together... Jazzy's dearly loved by all that's in the game and so many of us haven't found any motivation to turn the game on since she passed... I shed tears for Jazzy and my Ah-ma (grandma in Taiwanese) all over again so much lately...all I feel is pain and sadness. They say "only the good die young". Not sure who made it up. It makes me angry when someone use that phrase. So I've bounced around between pain, anger and sadness lately and a bit anti-social.
But I am still here and life must go on. Just not very talkative and asks for all to please understand and forgive my silence as well as a need to seek solitude. I have read all of your blogs/livejournals/emails on my end slowly and quietly and am still with all of you. I don't stay down long; it's not a luxury I can afford nor wish to practice in in life. Wanted to post this so as to not worry any one and I will be back to my wacky self very soon. Peace and love to you all.
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2007-07-02 1:57AM /
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Unfortunately, the video special is all in Chinese, but it's another one of those that I simply must share, so much so that this will be my very first blog with high honor.
Backstory: Grandma Peaches' daughter-in-law committed suicide. Her son killed himself within a week after his wife's suicide, leaving 5 kids (4 girls and a boy) behind. Two years prior, her son-in-law committed suicide as well from severe depression. All total, 7 kids have now moved in with Grandma peaches and her husband who were on the way to retiring from a life of hard labor farming to support themselves. The documentary is more than moving and show us humility.
I cried and I hurt through the whole documentary. I walked outside to collect myself afterwards and it had just stopped raining. The sun trying to poke out behind the clouds, I realized how fortunate I am in comparison to those in that family. Would I be as strong as the old couple, raising grandchildren all the while mourning for the lost of son and son/daugher-in-law? Would you...?
http://blog.pixnet.net/atwn2face2007/category/410567
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2007-05-29 7:25AM /
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I'd do this in both language, only my pc will allow me to type in English only. Lazy creature, it is. Maybe I'll upgrade my pc. *peeks to see if the pc's listening to the threat*
Will there be real blogs? Nah.... not really, but hey, if I ever feel like writing.... Well, you'll read it here. 
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