Because of flu, many schools and colleges has been shut down....So again i am on a holiday for few days.... It's so boring doing nothing....

My operation has been delayed a little bit....And because of my operation, My sister had also came back from her hostel...She has become very over-protective towards me.....

Anyways... people say that i am thinking and worrying too much about this operation...And  I am again and again talking about it....

But from which angle should i not worry???? Because this operation also has its effects...(Only if at all it goes wrong somewhere....) I am so much worried.... I am happy but still a little scared for this operation....Hope it goes well....

Few days before....I was not well...i mean, that same kidney stone problem.... (God, why does everything happens to me?.....) I went to the school and was walking with my friend....Normally i used to go with my mom but some times i go with her...as she lives nearby my home...

On the way, my stomach started paining so much....I was finding unable to even walk....Then she, helped me go back home and even she didnt attended school at that day...She was so worried about me that even after dropping me back home....she kept calling on the phone and was asking again and again about my health....

When she left me at my home...she was so worried about me that she told everyone to takecare of myself and not to send me school tomorrow....She is really my bestest friend.....I am so lucky to have such a caring friend like her....

Because of this kidney problem....I cannot go alone to school, like before... My mom will always accompany me.... It was just about a month when i started going without her....and when i started going with my friend....

Lastly, I just want to thank her for everything she did for me.... She may not regard all this as such a big thing but her little actions shows me that how much caring and helpful she is towards me... Thankyou, friend....You have really been a great / best / lovely friend of mine....She always says that if there was any other person instead of her....even that person would do the same....so no need to thank me.... But I dont feel like that.... whatever she says.....She has been very helpful and my best friend.....

Not only her...I want to also thank my all other friends and my other AnD.com friends including my twin sis....who have some or the other way helped me and supported me....Thankyou friends and i miss you all....

Oh yes! and how can i forget my sis...my mom and my brother.... Thankyou all of you for supporting me and helping me...When i needed you, you all were by my side....you ppl have helped me alot in your own different ways.... Even thousands of 'thankyou's cannot express my gratitude towards you all....

Finally today is my twin sister's birthday.....First of all i want to shout/sing like a little kid...

Happy Birthday to you....Happy Birthday to you...Happy Birthday to dear sister.....Happy birthday to you...May God Bless you...May God Bless you.....Happy Birthday to dear Sister....Happy Birthday to you.....

Applause!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha... (with laughter)

Here's a poem i wrote for my sister....I think it isnt that good which i wanted to be....But whatever it is...I did it from my heart...Hope you like it sis!

My Poem:-

You are more than just my sister,

You are like a Sun at the time of day;

And a moon at the time of Night,

Always keeping from me the darkness away............

Whether you accept it or not, Its just bcoz of you,

That i am much stronger than before;

I would have been so weak when problems...

hit me again and again like tides on the shore......

I was just a small flower without any fragrance,

You understood me more than anyone when i was depressed;

You stood by me whenever I needed you,

And have pulled me out from horrible state of distress.....

No matter how far we are,

You never fail to make me feel;

That you care for me and,

From your Love my deepest wound can heal......

We have not been together,

Life keeps us apart;

But we're never separated,

We are in eachother's heart.....

It's your spirit,

Maybe your soul;

But my Life without you,

Would feel plainly old....

You've been a true friend,

I hope you stay;

I would be so very empty,

If you ever went away.......

Okay! I finished....How was this????.... I hope you like it,sis...And i also wrote a song for you...I wanted the tune of the song to be energetic and happy....I thought about many tunes but there was some or the other negative points...

After thinking alot...I finally decided to keep the tune like Nic's song... "Crazy For You"... I think you must have heard it already... (I hope so...)... My song will have the same tune...but the lyrics will be ofcourse different...This is the first time i had written a song for any person....So please forgive me if it's not very good....I'll also write the original line in the bracket so that you all know how to sing it....

The song...

Today the sun will shine more brighter than ever [wei ni chang,wei ni tiao,wei ni feng kuang]

May God bless u this year with lots of smile & laughter [wei ni ku,wei ni xiao,wei ni zhang yang]

Many Many happy returns of the day,dear sister [wei ni xi,wei ni le,wei ni rong guang]

OoOoOoOo....

Today the sun will shine more brighter than ever [wei ni chang,wei ni tiao,wei ni feng kuang]

May God Bless u this year with lots of smile & laughter [wei ni ku,wei ni xiao,wei ni zhang yang]

Many Many happy returns of the day dear sister [wei ni xi,wei ni le,wei ni rong guang]

OoOoOoOo....

You.............     [Ni....]

Are a shade tree beside a summer way, [ shan yao zhe ai de guang mang]

Beside a summer way (Backing).. [ai..ai de guang mang]

You........ [Ni....]

Are like the Sunshine that makes a perfect day.   [san fa zhe ai de fang xiang]

That makes a perfect day (Backing).. [ai..ai de fang xiang]

You..... [Ni...]

Are like a flower worn close to the heart.. [xiang lie huo ran shao wo de xin]

Worn close to the heart (Backing)   [lie huo ran shao wo de xin]

You..... [Ni....]

Are like a treasure with which one will never apart.... [shi wo de xin zhong tai yang] ....

Imagine Nic's voice and sing this song...hope this can bring a smile on your face and make you realise how special you are for me.....

Hihi! friends!.... My studies will be started soon...sigh... But i am happy...atleast i wont get bored...

WAIT!!! what am i saying??? I never used to get bored in my vaccations at all...I was always occupied with some or the other things...Like my singing competition.. (Its better if we dont talk about it now) and then many other things like learning Chinese...learning Nic's songs...

Oh! It just reminds me that one week before i heard one Chinese song (Obviously sung by Nic)....It's title was "If there is no feelings" or "ru gue mei you gan jue".... Dont you ppl think that it is awesome and fabulous song?.... I know that it is very sad and emotional song....I can understand from its music....Plus Nic's voice alone can explain the emotion...of the song..

His voice was sounding so painful and so sad....To be honest i cried a little after that song....My dear brother....who was generous enough to find out that song for me was surprised and exclaimed.. "How come you know.......that its a sad song???? Did you understood the meaning???" haha! stupid fellow! I am not dumb for not understanding that the song was sad and quite emotional....Didnt he heard Nic's sorrowful voice in it???....

Anyways.... Since i was so touched by this song i asked my brother to find out its meaning if he could.... Surprisingly, he didnt refused my request...After say 15 mins he got the meaning of that song...whole translated in English!!!!

 Wow! He is really THE BEST! I dont know how but he did it and read out the meaning of that song to me....It was so touching...This song was awesome and had very emotional lyrics....and very very meaningful..... I cant imagine how you ppl felt when you heard that song...I didnt knew the meaning of that song when i first heard it but still i felt the emotion and cried a little bit....

On the other hand you ppl knew the meaning...I wonder how much you have cried at the end?...If i was in your place i would have cried a river....

Anyways.... Talking about my Chinese lessons....I have to wait a little bit.... One...It is very difficult for me to learn by just Mp3 lessons... I think if i look at the spelling...i'll learn faster...Everytime i cant depend on Max for all this....He is also very much busy in his own work....

 Like its always said... "Look,listen and speak to learn more faster...." Usage of eyes,ears and tongue can make things easy for things to get inside my "Hard-disk" (brain)....So i think i'll resume my lessons after my operation....But still i am trying to learn from Mp3 lessons...lets see how much i will cover up...

My twin sis...seems to be very busy nowadays...I really miss her alot...It feels so boring without her...

Anyways...I want to say that i really like all qualities in her but the most lovely quality is her way of talking... I mean she puts so much love ,care and warmth in every conversation that i feel her so close to me even when we are at so much distance apart.... She is very sweet and a very different girl i have ever met.... She cares alot about her loved ones....and also is very very hard working....To me she is a duplicate copy of Nic....She is very much like him....Hard working,caring,loving,honest, and good human being.....She is really to be adored...I look up at her as my idol...haha!

 After 2 days...Its her birthday... Obviously, I am planning to do something for her but it will be a surprise so i wont talk about it...But i want to say that whatever i am going to do is for the first time...I hope she likes it....Because it will be the first time i'll be doing it for her....But still it's a bit risky coz i am afraid i'll mess it up but still i'll just give it a try....What if she likes it????

Dont worry its not a very big thing but still a new thing for me to do.....I just hope that she comes at AnD.com on 29th July....I guess she wont be able to come here at that day so i dont mind that much...I just pray she likes it!...

I just want to show her that she is a very special and treasured twin sis of mine by doing something different and special....

After correct one week....(29th July) Its my twin Sister's birthday....Yay! I am so excited....hahaha.....This Month....Apart from her birthday....There's also one another event....Guess what????

This month....that is 'July'....I came to know about a wonderful Chinese Singer.....He is none other than Nicholas Tse!....You can say that i discovered him in the month of July....I dont remember the date...but it was 20s or something....I came to know about him on 2X July 2008....So it has been exact one year....since i became his fan....I never knew about him before July 2008.....Let me explain how i came in contact with Nic's songs....

One fine day... My Sister, A Romantic movie lover....was enjoying her weekend by watching movies....One of my Aunt...who is a Jackie Chan fan....lend her a DVD of New Police Story....At first she didnt felt like watching it....but she was forced by my aunt who told her that its an awesome movie and you must watch it....

She lazily watched it....Because she never used to like action movies.... Her eyes grew wide when she saw some one in that movie....(I am exaggerating this sentence)...Obviously she never knew who that handsome person was....Who worked with Jackie Chan in it....She found herself drooling over that actor....

That actor was her 4056th crush....(Again i am exaggerating).... She tried to inquire about that actor from our cousin brothers and our Aunt....but everybody shrugged and said... "We dont know...who he is"... 

She searched it and finally found out the name of that actor....It was Nicholas.... She didnt knew how to pronounce his surname....so she always used to spell it... "Nicholas T-S-E"....Please dont laugh...because she never heard this surname before...the only surnames we knew was Chan /Lee /Chang...etc..etc...

It was only at the beginning when she used to always spell his surname....Now we all know about the pronounciation....haha!....It was simple...and anybody could pronounce it....but still since we hadnt heard it...She used to spell it...Thankfully it was only 3 letters!

Now ofcourse both of us pronounce his surname.....I never used to spell his surname even before, when i didnt knew how to pronounce...Because I found it awkward....and it felt a little disrespect for the surname and also to the person (Nic)

She also researched a little bit about Nic....and found out that......apart from acting...he sings too! She told me about that....But i wasnt interested alot because she told me that he sings in Chinese....so i didnt even thought of listening to his songs..... But i was a little bit interested in this Nicholas...because he was Chinese....And you all know how much i love chinese ppl...She downloaded 2 of his English songs...."Making Love out of nothing at all...." and "Without me"...I heard them and from that day i fell in love with his voice....The song which touched my heart was "Without me"....Its awesome....

After Few Days....My sister became less crazy for Nic and i became more crazy for him....I dont know why...maybe because i felt something in his voice....I heard a few more of his songs and though i never understood....I used to feel the emotion through his music and through his voice....I pressurized my sis to research more about him....and i came to know about all his life story...I was moved by his attitude and behaviour....I realised that Nic is not only a good singer but also a very good person....He is different from other ppl....He is not like others who never admit thier mistakes....and i was touched by all the qualities he have....

So in this way I became his fan and it has been one year since i am his fan....My wish is that he becomes famous in India....Just like how he is in China and other chinese countries....I can say that...even if he walk on the road in India....Nobody will come towards him and ask for autograph.....Because nobody knows him....

This is the first singing competition in which i have participated! It was very different than what i had expected.....Sigh....

I had already mentioned in my previous blog entry ,about one fight we had in the middle of it....But to my surprise,those ppl were unaffectted by the beatings they got by our team's boys! They were still taunting,teasing and all those 'shit' happening everyday...while practising for our final performance....and they also passed few comments on my singing...and said that the judges just pity me...bcoz i am visually challenged!!!!!! and also said that whatever praises our group won from the judges was bcoz of me...bcoz i am visually challenged...

After i heard this...I heard my group's rivals laughing like anything on me...i just didnt knew how to react? I was left with "no expressions" on my face....I could feel,my lips quivered....but  i just cant think about anything which could calm me down or whatever i could say to remove my anger...I was with my friend (the keyboard player)...she held my hand and said in a low voice - "Let's go".....And in no time when i turned...i felt a pin drop silence...I thought that maybe any teacher or a judge must have appeared in the practise room....but later i realized when i heard it's voice...it was a contestant from "above 18 group"....He shouted at that boy for his behaviour and whatever he just said....his voice was strong enough to scare them away...and since he was elder ...maybe thats why that boy didnt said anything...But before anything could happen...I ran out of  that room...with my key-board player friend....to avoid anymore "pity"...that ppl show towards me.....

After all this...we (our group) didnt talked much about this incident...They just said that..."we support you...and dont think in that way...so all you need to do is relax and work on our next  final performance...."....I nodded briefly and didnt talked about it...i just said that from now onwards i dont want any fights bcoz since final performance is near...any complain could get us in trouble or could also expel us......It was hard to make the drummer to promise this but at the end...he finall agreed...maybe with a frown on his face...

In the practise sessions...nothing special happened, but we were really very tired of practising to death!!! Yes, it was our group leader,who was quite strict about practising and often marked our mistakes.....We were a little screwed up by his sudden strict behaviour but we understand that whatever he is doing ...its for the better! for our team....

Everyday, i would return with trembling legs after the practice...Not just i,but the whole team....But still it was fun...cause after practise...we always used to go to Mc Donalds and have fun together...Mc Donalds is like our fun-centre...We relax mainly there....Listening to music and chatting together...

After all this....Finally comes the final performance...We are all ready and nervous..thinking about what the judges will say after the performance....??? My hands were trembling and i was sweating....Suddenly a hand placed on my shoulders and i asked with a very panicked voice "Who is it?" ....Maybe i was scared about the outcome and was praying continuously to God....And finally someone spoke out... "Its me"...It was the same boy who always irritates us...He politely said "Sorry for my behaviour...i should have not told you such things"...."I...I am really sorry"....I was just making up my mind...what he really said? Did he,the boy who is filled wih ego.......said sorry? or am i day dreaming? Or my ear is working out of order??? All i could say was " What???...oh...I didnt mind either!..."

Anyways after all this comes our final performance...We were like BAM BAM and BAM.....We almost gave THE BEST we could....and as we ended...it was a light hearted moment when the judges commented on our performance....Confused? Well...let me explain first!

At the end of the performance,we were really scared about the judges' comments even though the results were to be declared a day later....The judges liked the performance and one of the judges who specially calls me "Chinese barbie doll"....Commented that it was very good performance by us....And since the song was romantic....and the 'male part' was sung by our group leader....That judge asked him..."Do you have any girlfriend???"...Our group leader was shocked by his straight comment....And was almost blushing...Then I slowly whispered to him...."Idiot,be a man...stop being so shy and tell her name...come on!"....(Actually he has a sweet girl friend..i dont know her much,but just met her once)....He answered annoyingly...."Damn! i got my mom,cheering for me in the audience....I cannot tell about my girlfriend infront of my mom...who is watching me with a deadly glare!!!"

We laughed our heads off over this topic at Mc Donalds.....And i told him (specially to make him angry)....sticking my lower lip out making a complete baby face to tease him...."If you truly love her then you must not get scared of what the world is thinking about you!!!"....He mockingly answered back  "Yeah,after that my mom would have jumped on to the stage and bashed me up.....infront of all those ppl"......I defended her mom by saying "Hey,your mom is so sweet....how can you be so afraid of her? She isnt that much strict either!"....He answered "You would knew, if you would be in my place..."

After all this happened....Finally on the result's day....We were announced as the third winner....We were over joyed...ignoring the tauntings of our rivals group who won the second prize....

Here's a song which our team sang at the final performance...Its a romantic song which i was talking about....I should dedicate this song to the super-hit couple....(our group leader and his girlfriend)

This song's name is "Kahin na Laage" OR "Is This Love"....from the movie "Kismat Konnection"....Starring: Shahid Kapoor as the lead actor and Vidya Balan as the actress paired with him...Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NNcAa0f5qrs