So many things have changed since my last entry. i know i changed personally recently. there were things i wouldnt do back then I do now; but not often. this isnt my life style that I will follow. its just something in the moment. i know many people think that this person is a big influence in my steps that i am currently taking. and thei people are right, this person is an influence, but its also my choice. no1 has force me to do things that i dont want to do. i chose to. if you don't want to be apart of this then thats cool. but don't assume that I will continue on this path for long. i know that this person is toxic to me. but for now, im just being a kid and enjoying my life. if yew chose to accompany me then elevate ur level.

Graduation is quickly approaching, I have less than 2 weeks to go. Its a scary thought. I am excited and yet kinda scared. This is the day I've been waiting for since I graduated high school. This will be one of the biggest achievement. What's the next step people ask? it will be work and grad skool. I am hoping to go to NYU or even possible UCLA. But that will happen after a year or two break. After such a long process of skool I think its time to kick back and gain some work experience.

Recently, not many people know that my friend brian and I nearly died last weekend. this no joke. this is a rainy day. we were heading towards the beach to meet some of my friends and on the highway we were in the fast lane. we were enjoying the music and minding our business, when a mercedes came out of now where and cuts us off!!!! this car sped up and then STOMPS on his breaks. our car nearly hit that car with FULL impact. thank god I have good breaks and brian had good reflect skills. this car did this to use 2 more times before speeding off! I was in tears because I was soo shaken up from it. this car couldve seriously cost us both of our lives. i saw my life flash before my eyes. all i can think about is what woulldve happen if we both serious died. would it even matter to anyone? my dad and his gf is gone on vaca. and welps, brian wouldve died before his bday; which is the next following day. oh yay... -.-" i hope people will think twice before doing such things to people.

last weekend, i spent my time celebrating my friend's 24th bday. asside from both of us almost being killed by a driver; saturday was pretty cool. i got to cake him, popped a bottle of champange and headed out to a nice restraunt called the melting pot. there were alot of yummy drinks involved. the food was a 4 course mean it was yummy. but i didnt like my salad, i felt like it was kinda watery. =/ we got complaints by other customers because we were soooo loud. lol its all good. after dinner it was really late so we just headed back to my place for more drinks since i spent ALOT of money on them, patron, champange, hynotiq and captin morgans.

2oo8 has been okay for me. Sometimes for the best. I've been  met some wonderful people this year and learn many new things even some stuff about myself that I never knew. I've dealt with many saddness but I just try to be very optimistic. I know many things happen for a reason. I know fate brings me to where I am. I strongly believe that a goal without a plan is a DREAM.

Summer of 2oo8 I spent all my time in NY working for WEG in midtown. I also had an internview with SonyBMG. That was an accomplishment too. I nailed the interview and received an offer even though I had to turn it down later on. I had a wonderful time hanging out with the NY/CT crew most of the summer. I had an awesome 4th of July. Spent all the time bbqing, pool & drinking. It was definately a spontaneous summer with weekly trips to NY and Boston.  I learn to play golf too.

Fall was just stressful and somewhat unpleasant. Ive been super busy with work, internship, workstudy and being a fulltime student. I would be in school from 9am till 1030pm and on top of that work on the side. I'm definately glad the semester is over and i have ONE more semester left and im done!!!

Im kinda sad that the end of 2oo8 has to be a bit bitter. Many things have happen and I wish it didnt have to come to this. I've lost many things throughout this year. However, I know what doesnt kill me will make me stronger. I wish this year i had a certian some1 this year to be by myside and guide me. Its just been very hard. My bday and xmass was incomplete without this person. & sadly to say that this person will not be by my side for the upcoming year. Its gonna be very hard. But I will try to be strong. You seriously don't know what you have till you have lost it. Life is not constant.

Theres only a few people this year who made a big impact in my life. I would like to thank them. One person made me see things in different perspective. This person allowed me to be who i am and not judge me. This person also made me feel like I am on top of the world and let me know I can live the life I want to live. I did things this year that I was completely out of my charector. no regrets at all.

another person made me realize that i deserve the best. this person made me feel very spesho. My friend & cousin made me realize that I seriously would trade whatever i had with a few people for what i have for this person. You NEVER will know what small lito things can add up too.

 For 2oo9, I know there is alot for me to look forward too. Theres graduation & more of Live Nation which i am totally looking forward too. I hope 2oo9 will treat me a bit better than 2oo8.

Im turning 25 at the stroke up midnight. Im not too excited about being 25. It means im a quarter of a century. =[ I so totally do not act my age though lol. Ive been chatting to a close friend of mine and I just need to take some advices. It goes hand in hand with my a certian person and just my life in general.

I need to stop making up excuses for my self for everything and just take a risk and do it. cuz how will i be certain with anything if I don't "test drive" certain aspects in my life. theres so much to do in life that I really shouldn't hold back. i need to learn to explore everything and live a little. what do i have to lose? absolutely nothing. so my goal for being 25 I am going to live my life and try to let nothing hold me back.

today was my first day off in a very long time.  as i predicted i spent the day lounging around. my original plans were to work on a few posters for some new events coming up around school. i was just too lazy to do them today. midterms are almost here too! i must study for the dreadful sports ent class. a lito birdie i know told me about a new opportunity is arising. so i need to start brushing up on my resume so i can be prepared for the time. friday was such a busy day for me, i didnt even have time to eat! i purchase a bagel thinking id be able to eat it when i arrive to my office. but nope, right when i walked into the door i was heading right back out. i spent a good three hours around boston. I headed to Berkelee College of Music posting up posters for an event that was going on that day and then handed out bracelets all over newbury st for another event on Nov. 5th. April Scott will be hosting the party.  Shes been on Entourage, CSI Miami and other shows that I dont remeber the name of. www.thelittleblackdressparty.com <~check out the website if your interested in attending. it should be exciting.

Theres also another event occuring on monday. Its the Improper Bostonian Magazine party for ther new Music magazine. Which ONLY launches once a year. So this event is pretty exclusive. Im wondering if I should attend or not. My boss already RVSP for me.. Im still contemplating now... *sigh*

*cross fingers for this new opportunity*

my 3rd week of the semester. i didnt attend class all last week be at mind I only have 1 class monday and wednesday and friday's class meets every OTHER week. So this week didnt meet. My class schedule got changed once agian. So the class I missed last week is called Sports Entertianment. I don't like sports. So one of the assignments that im trying to do right now is to see what player gets paid the most and read the STATS to see why they get paid as much as much as they do. Guess what? I DONT know how to read STATS for them. Oh not to mention that I have to pick either BOSTON RED SOX, Boston Celtics or the New England Patriots to FOLLOW. 1st off i HATE the sox as you all can tell  i like the Yankees, I don't like Basketball or football. T__T". I am from what pple call the "city of champions" aka Boston. But LAME i dont want to follow the sox.

I recieved my sylabus today for Ent Practium. I have to create event's etc around for the school. Which includes FILMING [YAY~!], and having pple do open mic nights and other social events for the school. I don't know how I will be doing all this. Also I just got a NEW internship with CNC Music/Big Night Promotions. I will be dealing with the clubs around Boston and this also deals with MGM GRAND at foxwood casino. Seriously, how will i deal with doing a part time job, interning, school work and oh yea I just got work study at my school!? Typical college student right?