about VIOLIN
Monday, Jun 15, 2009 2:16PM / Standard Entry
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violin, my haze dat i hvnt got any courage to face, hv become a thorn in my heart.
5 years ago, a beautiful misunderstand made me choose this interest 2 strive 4. first visitin Blue Music, cing mr zhong, a emaciated black-hair with bright eyes handsome guy, i knew dat was here my dream would began..asked 2 stand & stretch out my hands str8ly, noticing my long fingers, he said i hv a gift 2 violin..i thked god immediately 4 his generosity dat gave me such a length. then i devoted myself to it. my iwas trict so i had 2 practise violin 2h at least.. once one musical notation was found wrong playing should i restart the song.. it was not easy but i insisted and finally got a fast progress so dat he praised me a lot..i immersed myself in such a happiness even slacked off generally..i didnt listen 2 his demands & became indifferent. cos of my laziness, i requested to stop lessons 4 a while with an excuse of the final exam.a happy full 45min-class, which would be added up 2 1h even more than 1h as i drove up mrs passion,became hurry & hasty, just like wat i did 2 him.. i still remember wat he taught me, not only the skill of violin, but also the principle of life. wat he rebuked me-"y wasted ur gift? y atced like a fool? ur laziness made me disappointed! i looked up upon u! but now.."his sad, depressed, heartbroken sight of back always in my mind.i didnt change my mind cos i couldnt help myself... theres only 1 thing i could do was 2 feel sorry..so sorry..
1 year later , senior high school , i decided 2 try once more after several nites tossin & turnin. i apologised & swore i could show them my determination.he accepted me. however, just like the old days,progressed in a sharp speed won his approvement in the first year, fell down again! history reappeared..the same dejection the same criticism the more disappointment........ i had nothin 2 do..........................
finishing NMT, i really wanna restart it the 3rd time.. but i m afraid................. no confidence 2 me nor violin..... only boundless self-blaming & regrets..........
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