Blue Day

Woke up today not knowing what I suppose to be doing, body feeling extremely exhausted, probably due to the fact I haven't been getting much rest for the past two weeks and was shooting on yesterday and the day before. Yesterday night spent a night at jamming studio with the KIRI boys, I almost fallen asleep. My poor bf had to keep up with my mood swings, especially at one time I was pissed with them smoking at the stairway which is hot and no air ventilation, was choking me so I just walked off. That strike my guy that I was really not happy with him smoking.

Have nothing much to do today except trying to catch as much rest as I could for the day and chill out, so I came online to alivenotdead. Reading all my blogs again and some other members. Feeling bit bad about myself. I have not spend much time here as I used to anymore. I turned on my laptop and went and check out my AnD folder, I have at least 10 unfinished written blogs. All halfway, about the BSB concert I attended, about a few events I attended, about a few news article I read and wanted to voice out my POV, etc etc............

I really need to get myself organised!! My life is just in total mess.. I have 24hours a day and it seemed I could never get anything that I wanted to be done. And there few days ago, I was thinking of taking up a part time job, just to earn some extra income (as my bank account is drying up fast). I do love the part time job that's being offered to me. It is something that  I wanted since my college time, what I planned to do (not that what I am doing right now is not what I like).... Although I have forgotten most of what I have learn about the field, but I hope to gain all knowledge that I have learn during my college and put it back in practice. To juggle between my fulltime (which is really taking a lot of my time) and part time is going to be one issue and another major issue I am facing is my fulltime contract is quite strict and I do not want to risk anything on that...... Guess.. I have to go back to planning again and see how is this going to work out with my complete messed up schedule.......

I am also hoping I could do at least a blog to three blogs a week to keep my alivenotdead ALIVE!

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