You know.. This Sunday marks our 3rd year anniversary being together. I hope you understand why it is so hard for me to accept it in such short notice.

Thank you for the past 3 years. I tried my best, and yet I know I wouldn't able to be the best. You made your choice, sadly I am not the one. I hope you made the right o...ne. As there is no turning back. There is nothing much I could say. I always wished I had a chance but it is too late to fight. All the best..

Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CZ4fkyX_Fs0

GOD must be joking with me..

 

Remember the late 80’s early 90’s movie title ‘GOD must be joking with me..’ with the African guy? That was a good comedy. I still love watching the movie series and think the African has blessing to live a simple happy life. But, when such scenario happens to your life, what would it make up?

 

Ride been bumpy for me for the past few years ever since I step foot into this adulthood and working in this industry. From a young innocent girl, I had matured so much that I hardly recognize myself. Things or choices a 25 year old like me wouldn’t have made or been through, it seems like I have done or gone through them before I was 25. At 25, I felt OLD.

 

Some may or may not know that I was in a relationship for the past 3 years steadily with someone whom was my very best friend of more than 6 years. I never dated my best friend before, though it would be nice to finally found someone who understands so much about you and share so many things in common. We laugh at the same thing, we share the same thoughts, same opinion about life and any other things, we both love music and passionate about it, we both share the same interest… and many others. It is very hard to find someone who is so compatible with you. After 3 years, GOD decides to drop the biggest joke of my life.

 

Literally, it is so comical that you can only see this in TVB Series or some Hindi movies. Just can’t believe those 3 years of my life, I dedicated to him and it all just might not mean anything at all. I always strive to be the best. I worked hard in everything I commit. Nevertheless, this relationship too. I had failed relationships before, so some of you may think ‘Nah, it’s no big deal. It’s not like you never been cheated before or dump by your guy.’. All of those were different I guess. I don’t know why and how I get these instincts or nightmares that would haunt me at night and tells me things like your bf is cheating on you with this girl, or he isn’t in love with you, or something is not right… I just get these feelings, that I can’t explain.. Perhaps it was my Guardian Angel trying to tell me something.

 

‘K’ once asked me how I knew he was cheating on me. That was a utterly a stupid question to ask. He never treated me good. Even though we were together, but I felt I was just merely a toy. Worst, he lead me to proves that he was cheating on me. Lady’s hair 3 times longer than mine was found in his room, on his bed, his pillow.. everywhere.. and when he started to treat me super nice by buying me gives and such, the whole true colour gave out. I knew it was time to leave.

 

‘N’ got caught by me with just a simple email. That was an instinct that I can’t explained. I had the feeling when I was in Singapore and when I came back I just needed to know the answer. With just one email, I got all the answer I need.

 

This, I really don’t know how to explain. All just started off feeling very odd. I can sense that he was hiding something. Something that he didn’t wanted me to know. I cared so much for him. I understand him very well and so do all my exs. Maybe you guys just didn’t pay much attention to me, but if you told me you are serious in relationship. I will be serious. I given you choices, but you picked the wrong choice to mess with. I tend to learn and understand people I am with. It is part of me that I can’t change. It is my nature to care for friends and family. I would put a little effort to remember things and care for them. So when I sense you are not the normal you, I would know something is bothering you. It is not because I know magic stuff or mind reading. It is just that I am more caring and I am willing to learn more about others behavior.

 

The past couple of months, I found out something I been praying that it would just be the normal him joking. Finally, my nightmare came true. GOD wants to put me to test to go through hell once more with what I had before to test how strong I can go.

 

When he revealed the news to me today, I was surprisingly calm. It is like the stone that I been carried for months has dropped off my chest. All I need was answers to give myself a closure. I don’t know how others can take it. I don’t know how I will take it. Probably the calmness was just a temporary effect because I was just to stunned, or I have already given up on myself and him.

 

I wonder how other feels and get through with this..

 

When..

 

My boyfriend is getting married and the bride is not me..

 

To rub it in, he is getting married on our 3^rd year anniversary day (this Sunday)..

 

F! This is going to take me awhile to forget..

My Oh MY!

I just realise I have been here for like ages!

I have like 4 unfinished blogs.. all half way written as draft.. geeezzzz
I have to be try come here more often.. Most of you see me everyday on Facebook.. I must say from the first time using it I wrote I hate it.. Now I grew to like it.. My office has not ban Facebook (though they banned Friendster.. weird hahhaha) So it is like practically on every single day during the entire duration I am in the office..

Well, I just gonna do a quick update here.. I been working on a lot of stuffs..  a few projects.. Cant share here yet but soon I will... Soon......

My mind is all over the place now.. Bones are aching like hell.. Brain freezed.. super exhausted... Hasnt felt this for long long time already.. but how do I feel??? I LIKE IT! Yeah it is damn tiring .. I have not sleep for 2 whole week now.. Its 3.30am now and I just got home taken a shower... I suppose to be up by 10am to kick start the day huhuhu working on Sunday... sigh.. I wonder when I can hibernate LOL
I am enjoying the process.. because I am enjoying what I am doing now.. the work I put thru with all my heart.. even though I dont get paid.. I m using my free time for all these.. I do hope it pays off.. I will soon put more info here.. I will .. I promise.. I am saving this for a big blast :P haha

Now... my brain is going to be switched off soon..

where is my pillow.......................

This are the exact words I wanted to scream out when the plane touched down. I am writing from Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam, at Luan Vu Guesthouse, a little guesthouse where I am staying. Surprisingly they have excellent Internet service and SPEED!
Way much faster than what I have in my office LOL

Watching too much movies when I was a kid, when I came to see the word Vietnam, I will always remember the title 'Good Morning Vietnam!', made famous by Robin Williams, a comedy film from the 1987. Am looking forward to this whole trip. This would be my first time here and first time backpacking! Came here with my darling friend, Damaris. Both of us girls are just so crazy the moment we arrived here.

Upon checking in, we find this guesthouse quite lovely, quite decent for a small little house with only 10USD per night per pax. In the middle of the city, and walking distance to the famous Ben Than market, where we shopped till we drop! yeah its wrong to shop on the first day but heck we couldn't control ourselves. We reserved some for other days as well.

For lunch, we had this lovely beef balls noodles. Its not that I have not tasted Vietnam Beef Balls noodles before, but what we just had is really deliciois! Real tasty soup with fresh beansprouts, making it warm and nice just for our tummy. Way much different from the ones we ate in Malaysia. 

Just met up with Mr. Wong's friend, Ha Tri Throng. Sweet little lady :D
Anyhow, I should stop for now, as I need to shower since I caught in the rain while returning from the market. OH! Did I mentioned I was on a Trishaw? It was raining so we decided to take Trishaw from the Market back to the guesthouse. A real nice experience, which only cost us 2USD!

yeah pictures to be uploaded later :P
Stay tune for more! :P What I am having for dinner.. hm.. and also tomorrow's trip to Mekong River!

Hello to all from Saigon!

Wow! Came in today and saw my Hubby's concert being advertise here on AnD as ad banner haha.. how irony that I am in here today to blog about his recent visit to KL for his concert promo :P



Yeah yeah yeah I know I blogged late LOL I aint no reporter! haha
My hubby came down to KL on the 7th April for his 'Music-man Live in KL Concert'. I was only informed by a friend of mine, Kelly, just days before the event. Since I am not going for his concert (because I will be in Vietnam that time.. sad...) so I thought I should just go and show my support to him during the promo. Surprisingly the usual gang I would go hang out for my Hubby's event were NOT going! Most of them weren't there for the promo while quite a number aint going for his concert. Reasons were they are staying too far (another state) and ticket price this time around were too expensive (since we don't normally buy normal ticket range, we opt for VIPs which is now RM 600! way way out of my budget), anyway as much as I want to go, but I cant cancel my Vietnam trip..


No gang with me, I did feel bit lazy to go although I know where the promo is being held and its around 10mins drive from my office, I just didn't had the mood. Friends been bugging me to go since they weren't going, and I suppose to 'report' back the whole event.



On the day itself, I was still not in the mood, feeling bit silly having to go there alone and the whole excitement with my gang weren't there anymore. By 6pm, I was still undecisive if I want to go. Kelly buzz me the whole day on Facebook to go, finally at her last message I dragged my lazy bum up the chair and drove myself to Mont Kiara. Since I know the place fairly well, I was able to avoid the traffic jam hahaha Got myself to the venue in less than 10minutes with decent parking right at the door.

Luckily I brought my fan club (yeah yeah yeah I was that crazy when I was a kid, and I am proud member for HOManiacs, Lee Hom's Malaysia Fan Club, and yeah Yvonne, you are allow to loud out loud)  tee along, a quick change in the portable loos (One plus point to the organisers to prepare portable loos) and I walked myself in without having to be in any que to the fan club zone ;)... Maybe a lot of people are not aware of the promo, since it is not being advertise in papers nor magazines, and also the venue held is quite far (considering for those who doesn't have any mode of transportation) and fairly new open business centre. I happen to know the spot because I used to work near by at Desa Sri Hartamas and just 2-3weeks before the event I just went to that place for Tenji Japanese Buffet Supper! The crowd wasn't as much as I was expecting. Normally for Lee Hom's appearance, he would minimum have thousand of fans swamp the venue. This time the place was real small, and I think the attendance was just below 500.



Nevertheless, with little amount of people, the fans still gave all their love and support to their Idol, which can be heart felt by everyone at the venue, especially Lee Hom. Even it was a Tuesday, a working day, quite a number of people waited at the venue since 2pm! Bravo!
After a long wait, finally Lee Hom came in a van. He walked passed the fans but occasionally waved back as he walked into Boston Restaurant (One of the sponsors) to meet and greet the medias, vips and lucky Celcom users. While that was going on, Wen Kang (DJ) played a game with audience and one lucky gal won a pair of tickets to Lee Hom's concert.



At this point of time, my heart beat raced, I knew I can finally get to see my Hubby after two long years waiting! I finally got back my mood and pretty excited (well, not as excited as the fans around me who kept on screaming his name!). Lee Hom got on stage with fans non stop cheering and screaming. Still as charming and handsome as always, but he looked quite tired and occasional lost. Wasn't quite the cheerful and glow as he used to. Probably he just finished shooting a film the night before and straight away broaded a plane to fly to KL for promo. He looked very much skinner than before. Worked too hard! Get some rest dear!



Fans are thrilled to see him. DJ Wen Kang talked to Lee Hom a little about the concert and recent activities. For a moment, he still had the 'Beijing' accent on, he later explained that he just finished a film which features him as a Jeneral in ancient China war time the night before, so he still have not yet walked out from the character. He later sang his latest album single 'Heart Beat'. It kinna sounded funny with that accent haha but truely a good performer, his vocal  was good. I do wished he could had sang a few more songs!!!! I really wanted to listen to 'Everything'




After enjoying his lovely performance, the organisers started bring out the tables and chair for the autograph session. I was fortunate enough to get his album signed and shooked his hands. Sadly words lost in my throat. There's so much things I wanted to say to him, but it got lost as I walked up to the stage.



So here it is, this is what I really wanted to say:
'Dearie! Why didn't you take good care of yourself?? Can you take a break, stop a little while and have good rest.. It's heart breaking to see you get thinner and thinner each time I see you... Really wished I could go for the KL concert, after seeing you sing at the promo, I really sad that I cant go.. anyway Happy Birthday!!!! (an early wish)'


hahahahahahaha there you have it!

For now, I am back to the reality world, occasionally I still do date my Hubby in my dreams :P



Video: Lee Hom singing 'Heart Beat'