I can't believe that the holiday season is almost over...

It came so fast that I hardly felt it...

I guess, there were so many distractions that came by, stresses to overcome...

Anyway, I wish you all a Happy Season of Love and hope...

confused... I think I am coz  I don't even know what I am feeling right now. being in a holiday season makes it even worst since happiness is the theme

Happy...People think you need to be all jolly & ho hohows but really holidays are overated.hmmm, actually  I am happy right now coz i just read my GG/king's new blog...how poetic, taking out some of my stresses

stressed... as i said holidays brings more moods other than happiness. the past couple of weeks have made me so edgy and streesed. with events coordination, gift preparation and with xiao tian being here, it was really been a big circus of events. I really need time to relax

relaxed... well, that's a good thought...Unload all the pressure a bit...ahhh, GYM...if only i can be more inspired to sweat it out

 (my new bff, the crosstrainor & transport)

Inspired...my gym time was less to be desired...i am too lazy...I remember my first day on the GYM, i could barely make the first 10 minutes aboard the crosstrainor. I said to myself "Gosh, what would Vdubb say?" I need to do this and lo and behold I was kind of getting the hang of it... now if only my sched permits me to be in the gym for more that 2x a week...then i will be content

content...i am looking forward to a long Christmas break...so i can catch up on my sleep and stay in bed for as long as i like...but first things first, i need to get some shopping done and wrap my gifts in a very MARI~ way. the wrapping part of gift giving really excites me

excited...above shopping, the planning & wrapping of presents gives me a high. I do make it a point to put some personal touch on my gifts.hmmm, which reminds me I have not thought of a gift for my king.Oh how i wish i could really give it to him myself

wishful...gift would be perfect as congratulations gift for the new CD.If only I could really go to Taiwan. I am really hoping and praying that a trip in my  land of promise could finally be realized next year. The trip will hopefully sustain me for the surprises and events of the coming year

hopeful...taking a quote form ally mcbeal " if you look back on the year that was, if it didn't brought you to tears (happy or sad) consider the year wasted".2007 has really been an emotional year for me, experiencing all the moods you can possibly have.I know 2008 would be even a tougher year, I am kind of expecting it to be but I am hopeful.Hopeful that His will will bring me to a better disposition in life and see the wisdom in it. Hopeful that I would find peace with the state I am now.Hopeful that through it all I will still be thankful and feel so blessed

...now i really need to go to Taiwan to start my 2008 right

Happy Holidays to all!

Video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dZ7nF6MZc4s

I JUST LOVE THIS CLIP,

 anyways, on to my blog...

I have been feeling rather restless lately with all the physical/med exams that i have to go thru...

I was never the sickly type so i guess this feeling is rather unsettling to me...

am not yet out of the woods but seeing the results without needing to be a doc to decipher the med jargons, i may say that  I m A O K...

yet still can't wait till fri for my real life dr house to tell me that i will live...

that whatever it is , it is just a product of my highly advance imagination...

and that the solution to all this is...

janjararannnnn...

DIET, workout, diet,exercise, diet, GYM...

I've never been on diet before, but i guess there's always a first time...

am thinking SOUTH VANNESS DIET (steamed chicken & veggies)...

hmmm, maybe its not so bad afterall... i can do it....

who am i kidding!!! unsalted food & low fat stuff, arrrgggghhhh...

hayyyy (sigh!)  but i will do it for the sake of...

me being fit & healthy ... sexy & gorgeous ... proud & confident on june 2008!!!

i need to be... i need to do it...if its the last thing i'll ever do...(motivation june 2008)

so what's in june 2008, well that's another blog all together...

am just croosing my fingers that my concern will just be trimming down & not deal with some serious life threatening/lifestyle threatening thing...

for now I have to be in my never never land zone and think of happy thoughts!!!

need  to listen to my  prince and relax, chill

... while i think of ways of making my steamed chicken & veggies appealing to my taste bud...

...hmmm, i am alive not dead. I need to convince myself that I am alive

...its been a rollercoaster of emotions but i guess i have reached my downfall already and so my next stop would be up...and i mean up

...up where i could really feel that i am alive and kicking

...maybe even kick some butt along the way (wait, that's not me)

...just glad to find this space

...hello to everybody, especially to my one and only star, my king and my God's Gift...V

...you do bring colors to my rather gray life