Hi to all..
So much had happened in my life. Lets see..
I got married on May 31st this year; a simple wedding ceremony between family members but no wedding dinner held yet.
I am jobless since last Friday and am still applying for jobs. So far, I have been to one interview and yet to hear from them and tomorrow I'm attending another interview so wish me luck.
My parents are back together, bringing peace and harmony among ourselves which felt so good after all these years. The other woman has brought so much problem in our lives and my dad has finally seen the bad side of her; she's just a possesive and controlling bitch. I had my fair share of scolding her off on behalf of my dad and mum.
For now, me and my husband are living together with my parents because I am unable to buy an apartment due to the Housing Development Board R&R because I haven't got a job yet and my husband is not a Singaporean so it makes things so much harder for me because my parents are intending to sell this current flat to solve debts that my dad incurred loss during his stock investments.
So what have I been doing before everything else? Well, I was working all these while; too lazy to check my emails sometimes but blogging was never in my mind. By the time, I reach home, it will be too late for me to start on anything. EXCUSES?? Probably, hahaha.. Like I mentioned, I was purely LAZY..
Do I plan to have kids for now? NO! Definetly no! Not a good time to have kids nor am I prepared to have kids. I feel I am not matured enough to handle these kind of situation. I am more concerned towards my career and my husband also feels the same way except in the beginning, he wants to have a baby with me which FREAKS ME OUT!! LOL!! Yeah, you're not seeing things..FREAKS ME OUT.. I can't imagine myself going through labor and having the doctor to cut here, cut there...OMG!! Thats damn gross, so bloody and so painful and after that, there's the stiches..Please, SPARE ME FROM ALL THESE..I've seen my sister gave birth and how she went through the process, it was terrible. I remembered my younger sister telling me, "Jie, what others always say about, "its worth the pain when your baby is born" is all bullshit. HAHAHAHAHA...I laughed..literally laugh my head off. She was still shivering even after giving birth and man, she was so afraid to urine or pass motion. OMG, you should have seen those stiches, OUCH! So then again, I am not prepared to be a mother, what the heck, I'm such a LOSER and probably will be a LOSER till old.
How is married life? Nothing much special except on the wedding day itself. My husband is sitll the same, romantic? No..it seemed to have died down a long time ago. Don't want to emphasize too much on it.
Whats coming? MY BIRTHDAY!! how times flies. December 2 is the day. I am already 26 years old and yet I haven't achieve anything in my life, what the heck!! I am still going to work for others and be a minimum paid salary worker. Its killing me!! Not that I do not want to study and upgrade myself but the financial situation is SUPER HUGE BIG BLOCK to anything I want to achieve in life. I look at myself and see a FUCKED FACE. LOL.. I feel like a total LOSER! I mean people my age probably are doing better, directors, managers, supervisors and me...Money just got me stucked. I am unable to move within my own means, even I want to break free, I gotta think about how my steps are affecting others in the family, I just want to have a successful career like anybody else.
Negative thinking? Not really.. Even when someone screws my day, I still can laugh it off so I am still pretty much the optimistic person.
What am I expecting? SOMEONE TO EMPLOY ME SOON. Gosh..it sucks having no job at all and I just don't want to think about the rest for now.
Where to find my latest updates? Of course, the most popular website on Earth - FACEBOOK..
Since all of you missed me so much, I have decided to load pictures of my wedding day with some current pictures taken a few days ago - PLEASE DON'T SAY I AM NOT BEING FAIR HERE, at least I still resurface here in ALIVENOTDEAD..
Love you peeps..Muack!



Look at his face, he looks bored just being with me but i like..hahaha

Me and my sister decorated this on our own


My mum was the one who decorated this whole piece, it was so beautiful..

Me and my husband bought this table cloth and who selected the colors? OF COURSE, ITS ME..hahahaha..

Our rings
I dont know what happen folks but I am unable to load the rest of the pictures.. Rest assure, I will load them up tomorrow because its 12:44am on a Tuesday Morning and I need to get some rest for now..
Tata..