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Monday, May 11, 2009 11:12PM / Standard Entry

how true it can be.. guess my sis' curse did come to me after all =\ and i was still spinning my brain thinking where did that deja-vu come from.....

so it happened to me, what i did last time to my sis/family. i think i can still rmber that blurry image of my sis' annoyed face telling me 'i told u exactly not to do that yday right? what are u doin now?' and me timidly (maybe not so guiltily) saying 'sorry sorry i'm really sorry'. but whats clear in my mind is that i wasnt and isnt and will never be forgiven. then what my mum always say about me keeps ringing in my ears now. (directly quoted) "you're so c***p. ppl ask u go out u just go.
no dignity at all" haha surprise peeps~ yes my mum can hurt our feelings more than anything else. she isnt the mum who'll cover your humiliation in public but rather stand aside letting ppl laugh at you then go home and say 'i told u so'

anyway, my point isnt this. why why why is my past coming back to haunt me now X( perhaps now He puts me in my family's shoes and traps me there together with my past guilt? i wasnt even forgiven, why should i forgive? but i didnt even understand why couldnt they at least understand me, so who am i to judge now? perhaps i still dont understand, but i can alrd feel their pain and disgust and disappointment towards me. is it the same? probably not too. sigh i cant think now.
cant help loving them more than you. you've proven yourself to be expendable.

Music: Hatin' on the Club - Rihanna

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So That's It?

Saturday, May 2, 2009 10:32PM / Standard Entry

i believe thats it..

anyway the day after i told sis bout my ma, she in turn kena the near exact same thing =S what kind of sick joke is that? God tell me that u care...

then... i dont know? i think this is it? no longer the split second impulse on deciding... but due to many many factors and yes, i have to sacrifice a lot come to think of it =\ but life is always about making sacrifices, especially if you put your loved ones first. and in the meantime i'll need loads and loads of support to tell me to look straight, walk straight. never, never turn back or stop dead on track or regret or think twice! thinking twice is dangerous, especially during exams! xD

i need a nice vacation... hmm... but i'm now more focused on something.. and when its done, i'll take a nice relaxed beach vacation =D okay hope i'll succeed in it!! ^^

thats all for now~ i'm lookin forward for tmr's dimsum breakfast whee~~~!

Music: Let's Not... - Super Junior

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And Again it YOU! M.A!

Thursday, Apr 30, 2009 7:40PM / Standard Entry

bloggie~!!!! T^T migraine aura bullied me like shit X( can i say that He didnt come to my rescue this time? =(

anyway, yes i scared yet another friend of mine LoL sorry addy.... now that i try to reminisce, it scares me ='(

and what i had yday was the worst ma in history X'( the numbing didnt stop and in the end i was so scared i sob sob to mom who eventually brought me to clinic before hospital. but GLAD i skipped the hospital part.... couldnt figure out whats the purpose of taking cat scan.. so what if my blood vessel is thin? there's no cure also~ i want ma OUTTA MY LIFE!

then today i couldnt go to work... couldnt join no1 no3 and the gang to makan... T^T as much as i'm angry towards Him, i look forward for happier days okay!!! You started the fair and square thing, so when i'm upset now i must feel the equal amount of happiness okay!!! okay okay!! X(

blogggggieee....... T^T i shall make full use of rotting at home.... =(

Music: Club No.1 - SuperJunior feat Lee YeonHee

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*Title-less*

Sunday, Apr 26, 2009 11:49PM / Standard Entry

i like super junior~!!! they make me hapweeeee ='D

*looks at teddy banging head to wall numerous times xD*

yes teddy!!! i'm getting "softer" LOL!!! but but, i cant resist temptation of pretty boys xD *especially hankyung and kangin and leeteuk and dbsk xD*

what to do~~ seeing pretty guys makes me feel that i have no need for other half :p hence they make me happee :p

and oh my~ psc is finally here!!!!!!!!! *runs around hugging psc dvd box* and i never regret buying the limited edition after seeing the booklets :p

hmm....

actually, i have so so SOOOOOOOOOOO many things to tell u, bloggie!!! but you're so open, i cant :( so i'll have to find strawberries and cream soon ^^

but!! what i can say is that.... hmm....

airasia have cheap flights to taiwan~!!!! XD i wanna travel....

then then~ mommy does it again!!! =D so predictable~ she said, hey dont go aussie in july lah, we go taiwan =D then just now, she said again, dont travel so much lah.. waste money only.. better decide what u wanna study! LOL~~ mom oh mom~ u'll never change huh =)

i'm back to movie downloading spree!! and as i look at the list of CDs on my desktop..... i've been missing LOADS of downloads including gazette's DISTRESS AND COMA!! *slaps self unlimited times* okay okay go now xD

hmm what else?? i have a great great weekend!! slept thru the most of my sunday :p its just like catching up all the sleeping time i've missed loh~ then saturday, celebrated one of my colleague's bday then outing with aaron and sarah~~ great to see auntie!!! ^_^

thursday was daddy's bday~ will uppie pics soon (how many damn times have i said this and ffk-ed myself?? :p) breadhistory's cakes are proven nice for the price ^^

i'm thankful!!!! feel so blessed knowing that there's someone who's still willing to wait til i make time for myself.... =) unlike others who gets bored after having me ffk them few times.... yes u!! i promise i'll make time for u to go out asap, shon!!! ^^

i found a long-time song my sis sent me... and it can make me cry!!!! T____T go check in out, Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful~

what else? hmm... lee hom's comin in may 2!!!!! wheeeeee i must must must go for his concert T^T

so.... awaiting tmr's challenge!!! =)

Music: Mage - Immortal

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Its just a Week..... NOT!

Friday, Apr 17, 2009 11:30PM / Standard Entry

from what i can remember (which pissed me off real bad), last thursday, when dad and i were on our way home from the night market, this bloody dumbfuck banged into us~!!!!!
the sad sad thing is that, we were only less than 100m away from home, and i was staring into the thin air and this asshole just banged from behind and actually tried to blame it on us. wtf! lucky thing is, i was wearing seatbelt.... =\ so i experienced only bad neck for the weekend... and my darling family car~!!!!! T____T with the P sticker on it (though i'm officially free from it) everyone's gonna think that, 'whoa this is the kind of youngsters that causes driving licensing to get tougher' ah lar mak...... and its not the first that i hear such comments.... and i never even scratched the car as long as i have driven~!!!!!

anyway, today is really a dull dull dull dull boring day.... we both just lost that energetic sparkle in us.... =\

i just remembered something again! LoL~~

i think i know why i was attracted to no1 and no3... and yes i'm goin to forget that someone reads this~

due to internet-less era for a week, i repeated dbsk's mv darn loads of times..... until!!!!! i realised that no1 looks like yunho xD and! no3 looks like the ever 'choikang' changmin! ^-^ not exactly lookalike~ but in terms of erm... i dont know.. they just project the same aura to me lol yes addy, aura again xD but its okay, coz the one i really really adore is..... *ta-dah!* junsu~!!!! ohohoho~~ :p

its mid of april alrd!!! time flies, huh? =\ NO! time doesnt fly, it takes the express journey at the speed of LIGHT! -.- u aint being good to me, time -.- hahahah~ and i hvnt decided if i should proceed with my aussie plan.... sigh~

i now understand how hard it is to become like this school mate of mine: joker! haha not exactly that... but being an entertainer is really quite a hard job =\ and all the time you'll have to stay strong because you know that another person is breaking apart. and if you break down, you lose and you become as frail. =\ so i must be like him, always making ppl happy! then i'll be happy ^^ and i'm alrd doing quite a good job... so i must maintain! *uss~!*

God~!!! would u mind throwing me a fat little labby puppy? ^-^ my heart would be all yours haha! seriously, i'm in dire need for a puppy hug and a labby will make me fly to heaven at once!!! yes yes, i still love my dog but i really want to just hug a fat puppy!!!!!! =(

dearie!!!!! i miss u like *THIS* much...... waiting patiently for u to come back in july..... ^^ been so busy with work that i hvnt been reading on how are you doin!! forgive me....

i think i shall stop here til i remembered what happened for the rest of the lonely week...

and my slurpingstarbucks is now open! wheee~~~

Music : Come What May - Evan Mcgregor + Nicole Kidman

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