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  Wednesday, Sep 30, 2009 11:23PM / Standard Entry / Members only
  

  i start to see myself blogging monthly.
  
  truth is, i'd love to blog more than anything else but because there's too many, hence non could come out.
  
  fyi peeps, i'm still suffocating in this bleak relationship that i've never once stop regretting on starting it. there's 10 000 reasons to break it, and one not to. why am i stupidly clinging on to that one reason.
  
  i once told adeline that she's the kind of person who'd try every possible moves to shove peaople off. not her bad, because its better to hurt than to get hurt, if you realise how painful it is. then, i realised that i'm no different than her. he made all effort to make me happy, and i'm forever not contented. i'm a very much money-minded person, for god's sake. its not the money, its just reality. so being selfish is actually not a bad thing, its rather self-protection. but if everyone is selfish, who is there to give? i was a giver, i was terribly unhappy mostly all the time. i'm now a taker. it didnt change, i'm still unhappy. and the worse thing is? i made others unhappy too. thats why God always tell me, its better for you to be unhappy alone than you being unhappy *and* causes everyone else to. hence, i shall fight for tomorrow, but You must be there for me i dont care. thanks
  
  i just came back from a 4d3n trip to penang. finally, right. but there are still babies i didnt meet. 4 days is definitely not enough. its quite a nice trip, really. and did i mention i love that place? lesser crime, more food. bad thing is, no night life. i think i'd prefer bangkok for that =D its a good thing tho, that i've met one. my nyee nyee~~ ^_^ she's such a darling!!! and i owe a big time thanks to my anak buah teddy for making efforts to make me love penang (you did it! xD) i must say that 5hr bus journey was definitely worth it.
  
  then the weekend before, my pangkor gang treated me to the first ever Revolving Restaurant in Federal Hotel, Bukit Bintang. believe me guys, kl tower isnt the first. about rm50 inc taxes per person, its a fair price for what we got there. just-okay food, busy crowd mostly the occupants of the hotel, and the slow-but-thrusting revolver. what cheered me up was the crowd. *my* crowd =) its so unfair that it was my day but adeline was so pretty! xD the white dress suits her perfectly (except the back part X( cut it off! :p), then aaron is in town working while waiting to start his uni, and mern looks as pretty the way she is ^^ somehow i felt so cherished that day, seeing us having a great time ^^ and there's this really nice uncle making balloon arts for every(i think) table. we got ourselves a doggy balloon and a something-shaped, for aaron xD photos will be up soon, if i'm not lazy, which i'd finally will turn lazy xD
  
  looking back, i've had another greatest short break since my end of work til now. i've been to genting, this time with my boy, then redang, my most treasured holiday escapade, then penang. i dont deny that i find studying is the final turn off for life, and so i enjoyed the remaining of days. and mum never stopped complaining how i used *her* money to have fun. its okay, its parents job to annoy their kids ^^
  
  i was finishing my brisbane picture upload in facebook when i'm now halted at the gold coast part. i've moved forward for tangalooma, now gold coast, the finale~ its kinda hard tho, to reminisce the sad parts. but its okay, i should be able to finish it soon. i'm so way behind off my photo uploading schedule X( sorry peeps....
  
  uni starts next monday, and i'm anxious on it. i somehow have the fear that i'll be suffering like in a levels again. its either you're a geek or you're a clubber. and if you're in the middle like me, you become a loner. =\ for a social butterfly, that was fucking sucky. its so easy to just party all night, only if you're a rich brat with no financial constriction. or being a geek, only if you've no life of your own, or you're born like that. dammit, its scary to even think of it now =.='
  
  i've been on GA marathon since last night. bloody hell why is grey's anatomy SO GOOD that mostly every episode requires the tissue box next to you??? tonight will be the finale, and the season 6. god, it must not end like E.R. T^T kathy and patrick sure made it big thru GA, not to mention sandy who's been on several movies holding small characters now widely known. please dont end so soon X(
  
  i'm soooooooo scared to check my jrock updates. have i lost interest? NO. i still headbang to every dir en grey songs ^^ just that i'm scared that i'll be crazed again ..... and teddy said diru's coming out with another ALBUM??!! wtf???? gimme some singles first la!!!!! but i do know lah, that they've written that new album together with uroboros~ uroboros is LOVE~ the change of style is so heavy and yet blends it too well~ gawd, dir en grey must NOT split until i get the chance to meet them!!!!!!
  
  i've no idea what else i can blab, so i'm gonna continue my grey finale xD so long now!
  
  
  Music: Money Honey - Lady Gaga (yeah u can figure she's my new love)