It's been a really hard time for me, actually passing the toughest road I never encountered.
In fact, I’m really a pessimistic one and I’ve lost confidence for a long time. Sometimes I asked myself whether I made a correct choice and always give a negative attitude on myself. I have to admit that I’m always questioning myself.
It is really a bad habit.
I took my focus on what I’ve lost while with no attention on what I have.
I did isolated myself.
Well, sometimes we do things in life knowing that the outcome might be not we're looking for,. Although many people have told us that the outcome is not the most important thing, sadness is hard to overcome.
Last year , a year full of disappointments ,has been a year to remember.I made mistake. I got a stab in the back. I did lost someone and could not get out up till now but I could only wish him true happiness. I didn’t get a satisfied position for some problems I could not handle. Life goes like a boat on the sea, sometime up and sometime down. Route changes unexpected where someone passed or someone joined while ironically I just know wait and see. Judgement comes right and proper.
Anyway,all these would be my treasure. Hear,fear,emotion would be engraved on my heart.Storms would back to calm after all.
Everyone will grow from his life experience since we have no choice but to take the laughter and the pain that the fate had planned for us. I know it is time for me to pick up the pieces of myself and make all effort to fix myself not only for myself but also others.
I’m so lucky to have friends around supporting me as well as my parents, auntie and uncles encouraging me with great patience. Thank you all for supporting and believing in me . In addition, I should apologize for my self-will and there’s no reason for me to hurt them anymore.
I’ll try to be best of myself, not the best student, or a graceful girl ,or the topping TCM doctor, but the opportune one that I can be.
