My first art exhibition is ON... well not quite yet, but end of april at the Rovaniemi City Hall Corridor. So... man's got'ta start from somewhere.

I haven't decided yet what I will but up on there exactly, but I was thinking to do little bit everything.. Drawings, paintings, t-shirts and clay... if it's possible, I haven't yet check out what kind of ...premises they have to offer. It took some, a lot of time to get to even this point, that I'm ready to show my art in live... and it demanded some outside help because of my mental difficulties, but here we are and I'm little proud already, yet even more nervous. Thankfully I do have help promised for all the way until the end of exhibition

Sooo, to get to this point I had to have almost breakdown before, thats one of the reasons I've been out from And, and even my facebook and g+ life have been silent. I've been forced to concentrate to my real life.  the almost breakdown was compination of many different reasons; my mental and physical difficulties in life + new school ( I was trying to study to be Interior textile artisan ) that went crashing down because the institution that did promise to pay my studies didnt manage to do it and other.. more personal stuff...

So now I'm in rehab... well actually I'm in sick leave, I've been in it since autumn and I'll be untill end of the year and after that I start rehab in Artand ceramic  workshop and partly in Media workshop ( I think ) and hoping that after all this, I get a job... but most likely I have to take the next best option and go back to school even that I have lot's of learning difficulties and hate the schooling.

anyhow... this update might look unhappy, but it truly ain't that. 
We got a new car, we have snow out side, I have loving family, people a do buy my art time to time and I think I have found my calling.

so.. HAPPY CHRISTMAS ( to all you who celebrate it ) or if theres some another celebration around soon, you have a good time with that.. I concentrate to Christmas because I love it (even that I hate presents)

and I could not find any from stores and my wife ask :" why don't you paint your own?"
and I was like.. why indeed...

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i made a drawing and it should look like my son.. good for me, only couple AnD'ers have ever seen my son so you won't know is it even anything like it..

ofcourse I made him as baby.. not like soon to be 10y.

This a is a subject that I got from  a conversations with Reni and.. to be honest, I've been wondering this a long time.  I haven't written a ... blog.. in English for a while, so please, try to suffer it without permanent damages.

it's about art, and how way to many people seems to think, that people who make art, artists, do it ONLY for fun.

So, I'm not (yet, I hope someday I'll be, and signs are good) any successful artist. I'm not actor (yet ,I've done that too), I'm not singer (oh you should thank your personal God's for that) and my writers career is .. ahm.. how you say.. still on hold? ... but my painter/drawer/tattoo designers career seems to live still.. I can't make a living from it but it does give little extra flavor to my normal (normal to me, not to you... non of you could survive with my life.. with my brains and.... ) weekdays.  I did do some counting today, and by this speed, I might be able support my family by art in awwww... then more years... or miracle.  It's not bad from where I see.. why?

Because I live in country that have less occupants than most of cities in the world and in this country, to get some support from your Government you must first study in universities and make a name and be a rich artist.. poor, talented ones get nothing.  So, where I stand, I think, things are just fine. I have no education for drawing, painting or even writing.. yet I have blog (in Finnish) that have some regular readers, some of my short-stories have been published (that happened long time ago) and I have sold some paintings, and people do call me to design them tattoos and time to time even make a paintings.

Yet.. for some reason no-one seems to be ready to purchase art from me.. even that they tell me, my "art" is better than the next one... but because the next one is done by some old dude who's drunk and have name; they might maybe (just maybe) purchase it. Most of time, they doesn't buy anything and just get them self's drunk and enjoy the hallucinations.

I have a feeling, that people doesn't seems to get that making art isn't just a hobby for us... we would like it to be our life that supports us and our families.

It honestly hurt my to see how people look their boring cement walls and cry, yet they are not willing to "waste" some money to get something beautiful or meaningful or fun or all that... to cover that cement. For some reason, in my tiny and backwater country or even in huge world... art is still underrated. there's only those some famous who make a living from it, and it doesn't even matter are they really talented.. it's mostly about marketing and luck.

it's sad that this is what we have be come... things were better in history... well.. somethings.

oh. have you seen this yet?