I'm failed..
totally failed...
he doing stuff are torturing me..
how can i just can forget easily and with no pain and no hate?
i really ...
dunno what to do..
she and him like being so close and..
i just wondering what i lose to her?
she rich than me?
prettier than me?
kind than me?
i just can't stop thinking bout it..
IT'S HURTS ME LIKE HELL...

there no true love..
there no people treat me with their heart..
all just wanna get some benefits..
what love forever also bull shit!
i just realize there's no fairy tales story happens in my life..

what if i throw his jacket?
what if u delete all the photos me n him?
what if i throw his necklace away?
what if i burn all the letters and cards he gave it to me?
what if i delete him in my facebook and msn ?
WILL I FORGET HIM IF I DO ALL THAT???!!

everyday i just feeling i fail once and another time..
i almost can climb up walk again.. but when think about him i fall down again..
it's pain enough!!!
oh GOD , please wash my mind...
i don't want to suffer like this again..
or can i hold my breath forever?
i really enough suffer and torturing..

I'M JUST NOT OK !! DON'T ASK ME AGAIN!

on duno wich day ..
we break up..
is too sudden..
i duno  how to react..
i mean he totally changed since tat day ...
he so cruel..
so mean..
dun even care bout me..
i really duno wad to say lah..
aikz..
today..
once again.. suddenly think bout him...
before we start.. everyone tell me he's nt a good guy..
include my family oso..
but..
i dun listen..
i still choose to be wif him..
i tot he diff frm others..
i'm so confidence wif him..
i mean he at least won't cheat on me..
but now..
i'm still doubting that...
he told me he didn't~
but..
only he know and GOD know..
but i really want to know the truth..
although maybe it will hurt me..
but at least i know wad happening..

i mean why a guy suddenly will changed so fast?
i oso try to save it.. but it not working..
i willing to wait..
willing to care..
but he just push me to the last choice we had..
maybe he just act like an innocent guy and i'm the worst gf in front of others..
please alvin..
change ur password in facebook..
i admit.. i log in twice after we break up..
is naturally..
haiz..
b4 tat week everyday wake up just like we never break up before..
but now..
even i gt accident.. u oso won't ask bout me..
just dissapointed..
i hate people act in my life..
but i'm the one alwiz who acting..
kinda funny right?

thank GOD appear many friends in my life when im weak and lost..
i just realize.. he not that sad after break up with me..
he still can wish ppl's birthday..
comment on ppl's wall..
HE REALLY GREAT WITHOUT ME..

just wondering all things he told me..
which one is truth which one is lie?
or all are just lies??
i've been fool by him..
GOOD JOB , alvin tan p.c

conclusion: once again i've been fooled by a guy again..