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  • elavndrc: ''I envy those who know what they want in life and do everything they can to reach their goals. It's a good way to be.''

    Friday, Oct 16, 2009 9:22AM / Standard Entry / Members only
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    (Rain pics explained at the end)

    elavndrc's (http://www.alivenotdead.com/elavndrc) comment taken from her profile really moved me. It's a short, simple comment but I was quite touched by it. Why? Well, I feel like I'm one of the people she envies. It really is a great thing to have a big aim in life, a sort of dream. If I talk about people around me, I can safely say that there isn't much people that do have this strong passion to achieve a certain something in life. And by that I don't mean, go to College, go to University and then get a job and make money and babies. I mean, that for some people is what they want to achieve in life and if they do, good on them. They're happy. However, this may not be the lifestyle other people want to choose therefore don't force this on everyone. It's about individual needs because there isn't just one road to live your life. I am constantly bashed with people telling me to live in, what I call their archive of life.



    To break away from this ''archive'' I have to sacrifice a lot of ordinary things that a 19 year old girl should have done or should be doing. This sacrifice to other people is known as crazy. Well I don't actually tell people my ''goal'' but not because I'm trying to make things worse for myself, but they won't understand for sure, things get complicated and they won't just think I'm crazy but mad, bad and sad. I am willing to take these sacrifices and become a strange odd one between friends and family. I don't think anyone can ever truly understand unless they feel the fire themselves. 

    So you have this dream and you want to achieve it, you make sacrifices and the people around you think you're crazy. What can get any worse? Oh yes, the main goal. ''Will I ever make it?'' This is a scary question and it's what scares me the most. I can get over people thinking I'm a waste girl, thinking I'm crazy, sacrificing what I feel I should, but what if all this is not paid off? What if you don't make it? Am I making the right decisions? Am I going in the right direction? I don't doubt my goal, but I fear whether the route I take to get there is correct and the most powerful dream killer of them all, the fear of failure.


    So what do you do? Well unless you can see into your future there's nothing you can do except do your ultimate best and wait. To have this passion you have got to be strong. If you can make sacrifices you can't afford to loose confidence. It happens and you feel like shit, but the passion and determination that you hold can win. If it doesn't win, it's called giving up. Giving up is a bad thing when wanting to achieve something. We all have them thoughts of just giving up and giving in. Many times I have wanted to give in because it gets emotionally stressing. But that's just a split second of my emotionally stressing mind because in the end, my passion wins.



    It's tough. I guess that's why during times like these you need music to lift your spirits and of course an inspiration to, well inspire you. I guess I'll have to thank Rain (which explains his pictures throughout, well also because he's brilliant to look at)~ His past, present and future screams hard-work and passion. And that's an understatement.



    I wonder if any of you out there was at that point in life and has now achieved you're goal in life...... :)


    Katie xoxo

     

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  • elavndrc
    posted on Wednesday, Oct 21, 2009 8:37AM [Report]
    awesome blog ~ i didn't think what i wrote was a big deal but I'm glad that you were touched =]   I think if i were even half as passionate as Rain or you~ I'd be somewhere by now haha ~ we're four years apart (I'm older) but I feel like I'm learning about life from you ~ thanks!
  • peachey
    posted on Friday, Oct 16, 2009 10:22AM [Report]
    Good on you for sticking to what you believe you want to do at this part of your life. There will always be naysayers, there may often be doubt. You have to keep yourself together and do what you want to do. It's actually normal to be at a loss sometimes too. Good luck with it all.

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