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Revelation Night.
Sunday, Aug 8, 2010 3:39AM / Members only
Tonight is indeed filled with revelations.
Maybe it's because when something hit you hard, you'll start to ask God in your mind and God will start letting you to see that what you may not see in the past.
Right now there's so much things going through my mind.
This started off when I kind of confirmed that BS lied to me.
Seriously I felt hurt in some point.
Like what I post in my FB, I felt I've being too trusting.
Despite the fact that I felt the "fishiness" a while ago, I choose to trust yet what I do not wish to see come to pass.
Honestly, not just BS, I've this "discernment" for the rest of the guys as well, just that I did not talk about it in details
Even I did not talk about it, it does not mean I'm not concern over it rather I've being asking God what I shd do.
I mean, I do not want to be a legalistic person but still there must still be some convictions I need to maintain.
Finally, I felt God has given me the answer by reminding me what Johnson told me.
Johnson once told me to focus on those who are hungrier to know more and have more desire to recieve.
Initiatly, I felt that Love shd not have favoritism, the amount of attention and love shd be given to all at the same amount.
This is true.
But then why do Jesus has only 12 disciples and 2 of them are his "favourites".
NOW, then I understand.
Jesus gave every single person an opportunity but the 12 are the ones who are willing to give up everything to follow him(in the books of the gospel, Jesus did told a few others that if they want to follow Him, they need to leave their family, their house and in the end, they decided not to follow), and the 2 are ones who are willing to sow into Jesus' life in order to draw even more(the one who are always at the feet of Jesus to listen to His teachings.)
Why? Jesus is 100% God as well as 100% man.
MAYBE He understand that man live under the limitation of time and becuase of that He could only touch the handful of people which in turn touches others. After all, His ministry on earth only lasts for 3 years!
With the 12, the gospel is spread to the entire world within a few thousands of years.
Like wise, during my 12 years of knowing God. I often grumble why some leaders focus so much of some ppl and not me! Not fair! I want to grow too!
Now, Bringing this revelation into my current situation. I know I cannot touch and have a personal relationship with every single people I know which includes the people in the CG.
I'll give everyone the open door, the opportunity at the beginning, but eventually, I got to focus on those who are willing to come into my life as well.
It's not being proud, but I got to do the most out of the limited time in my life.
Honestly speaking, my heart is close for some people in my life for now, trust NEED TO BE EARNED. No longer "FREE ENTRY".
I got to trust God that He'll start to do a work in the hearts of the people while I wait upon him. Those hearts I couldn't touch, lives I couldn't change.
I ned to step aside and let God do what He wants FIRST.
I MUST know that when the time is ready, His Willl will be done and I'll be his hands on earth.
This revelation lifted so much anxiety and burden in my heart.
I know I can simply trust in God with the lives He has put in my life.
I know that all things work together for those who love and trust in Him
Be STRONG and COURAGEOUS...
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Another Friday
Saturday, Aug 7, 2010 12:54AM / Members only
I barely "pass" today CG, as usual Johnson sound as "Xiong" as before but thank God for leading me to see john's comments in a different way.
So learning from today mistakes will make a better me tmr.
I'm glad that my relationship have move to another level with Sebest and Grace..
Well at least I feel that way, and even Preston.
I need to continue to pray for the rest of the members..
Looking forward to having my breakthrough financially, then I'm able to go for mission trip!!
YEah..
LOve God TTM...
be STRONG and COURAGEOUS...
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Felt Fed today.
Wednesday, Aug 4, 2010 12:21AM / Members only
It had being a super long time since I last fellowship with Pst And Wenling and the rest of the CGLs.
Feel so Fed... :)
Looking forward to have greater friendships and relationships.
be STRONG and COURAGEOUS...
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The goodness of Singlehood.
Tuesday, Aug 3, 2010 12:27AM / Members only
That is the first thing that come in my mind to summarise my day.
Monday: Meet up with gracelyn
Tue: Leaders Meeting
Wed: BS with Sebest
Thur: Movie with long-time-no-see friend, Faith
Fri: CG
Sat: Svc
Sun: Sabbath cum family day.
Seriously, I need someone who is able to share my vision and burden for ppl.
I know my pirorities will change when I get attached.
I know ultimately, my r/s with my future spouse will be my priority so I pray that during these period of time while I'm single, I'm able to do as much as I can as per His plan. :)
What I am looking for in a man:
Passion & Godliness.
That's not hard right? God, hear my cry today.
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So Proud of my dearest YSK, Now it's the season.
If you're reading this, Words cannot express how much I'm so excited for you.
Even The path is narrow but you'll stand in awe when you reached the destination where God wants to bring you.
Prayers and Wisdom is indeed what You need. I'll keep you in my prayers. :)
Love you many many, my bro..
be STRONG and COURAGEOUS...
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Found my way back into Love...
Monday, Aug 2, 2010 12:07AM / Members only
Thank God for the strenght as I thought I'll be drained out with FOP and Anniversay.
FOP:
I thank God that I went with Minghui for the Friday session. Truly I was so touched by the testimony of Pst.
Once again, God reminded me that He can indeed use anyone who is willing to be used by Him, Not someone with great talents.
I always have the thoughts that I may not be good enough, my life is not abit impressive or rather, a life filled with failures.
How can such people be good enough to tell people who seems to live a better life that God is a good God?
BUT God is truly awesome, His ways are truly higher than us and we cannot see 100% how God see.
I'll always rmb Dr Che Ann, a boy who has 2 siblings who are doing so much better than him when he's in sch. A teenager who went into drugs and rebellion. A son who disappointed his dad for yrs. A husband who is verbally abusing. This man turned out to be serving along side with the pastor who has the largest church in the World.Pst Joyce Meyer too, shared hw such a failure she is @ the beginning of her christian walk with God and now, she's changing the world with her divine experiences.
I'm truly touched by the unfailing love of God.
Truly, when I'm weak, He is strong.
The darker experiences we've went through, the brigther we'll shine when we get out of it.
Anniversery:
Nothing fancy about the celebration this yr but if there's only 1 thing I will rmb out of the whole service, will be the worship session when Sun leads.
I was brought back to the days when I was in Hollywood.
I love Sun, I could feel her love, her pure love for God during the worship and make me want to love God even more.
I've learn that it's really not about just the techniques in song leading etc. Impt but not as my own relationship with God.
Her love for God flows out during the worship, and that's is what moved me.~Love is where I devote my life~
be STRONG and COURAGEOUS...
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