Now I worry I'm not what you want,

I'm not strong enough, I'm not good enough

I wish I could be everything you want and more,

I wish I could make your heart hit the floor

I wish when you looked at me you couldn't speak

I wish you showed me the moments where you realise you're in love

If I could just understand that it's me you really need

Then maybe I could just stop feeling this way

When I wake up I want to try just that little bit more

Anything to make your head turn

I wish you could find the inbetween for me and you

And not make me double guess everything you do

I want to make you understand how much you mean to me

I wish you would make me understand the same

I know you're the one for me, as I have already shown

All of this I should have already known

When my eyes close it's only you I can see

When I smile, it's only because of you

When I cry it's the thought of loosing you

When my heart beats, it's because of what you do

I hope you know I want you more than anything in this world

I hope you know all I want to do is make your world spin

I wish you know that all I want is the best for you

I wish you understood everything I do is for you

Someone :

• who can always be there for me whenever i need.
• who can share my thoughts and secrets.
• who can make me laugh whenever im miserable.
• who can understands me.
• who can jokes and laugh with me.
• who can be with me till im dead.
• who can lend me a shoulder to lean on.
• who can be with me all the time.
• who can trust and believe me.
• who can be honest by not sweet talk.
• who can  feel my heart beat.
• who can talk to me everyday.
• who can travel with me everywhere.
• who can read my mind.
• who can ask me the truth instead of guessing.
• who can be real with me by not faking.
• who can really understands the meaning of love.
• who can actually be with me forever.
• who can  hug me tightly.
• who can sing me a song when im moody.
• who can spend most of the time with me.
• who can understand my feelings.
• who can understands the reason why.
• who can make me laugh all the time.
• who can understands the meaning of life.
• who can hold my hand by telling me be mine.
• who can tell me the past history.
• who can re-correct my mistake.
• who can be a family man.
• who can loves me for who i am.
• who can support me whenever i need.
• who can support my cost living.
• who can take care of me when im sick.
• who can take the responsibilities.

Oh My God, I finally get to online from home. I’ve been on-lining using my mom's cell phone. I’m not sure how they are charging it. I’ll be totally dead if my mom sees the bill. Let’s talk about my life for the past few weeks. Life is good, I guess? Actually, there were things happened which I don’t think I'll talk bout it. Few weeks ago, I was having some trouble particularly regarding with my dizziness. Every time when I am outside, I realized people look at me as if I was an alien. I don’t give a shit about them. After talking to my friends, I only know it was my fault. I guess I went out too much without knowing the limit of my health status. My aunt says I need vitamin c. All I have was only one “folio acid”? The yellow pills! I am supposed to take those pills every morning after breakfast. Well, I didn’t because I am lazy and no point of taking it every morning since I’m always in the same condition. Does it has an expiry date? Those pills were given since last year.

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