yesterday: SUNDAY.
yesterday i had my laundry done, and cleaned my room up. Actually i cleaned the house up, and now i've pretty much become the "mother" of the house, in the sense of keeping it clean and doing the dishes, the way i see it, to keep my own sanity, is that its too bad they others don't know how or dont want to pick up after themselves, because one day they're gonna wake up and no one is there to pick up. And i do it so i don't live in a rat mess, it doesn't bother me at all, i like when this place is nice and clean. So anyways, later in the day some of the girls and robin, went to Mong Kok to walk around, Robin needed a new wallet, and just wanted to get out of the house. So we meandered our way around ladys market, where rows of tents display the same five items, for blocks on end. you can either find futbol jerseys, souvenirs, clothes, fake rolexes (i bet my gma would want one) or the occasional artwork. After getting lost in the long row of tents we found ourselves in a crowded mall, if you could say that, in which numerous small stores, boutique like, have cheap clothing, or nostalgic gifts. I found myself debating weither to buy a t shirt of Duck Tails, or japanese candy. Either didn't seem to work out, because i found a food stop with corn. (Corn is very big here as a side dish, even the McDonalds has a side of corn) Finally we made it through the maze of a mall, and Lai Lai took us to a place that specializes in tea with boba balls, small tapioca at the bottom of your drink. All four of us sat and enjoyed the different flavors, mine was passion fruit mango, highly recommended. After our tea we jumped on the mtr and headed home.
monday evening, and the brazilians are cooking. It smells so good, garlic and oinions, and unfoturnately chicken. By i myself made pasta, with cherrie tomatoes, sauteed zuchinni and mushrooms, with pesto sauce...ya i know it was as good as it sounds. HA. And believe me it was.
today i had 3 castings, starting early morning, i had to get up at 8am, get ready and took the bus with AnneLisa to the other side of the island, which was about 30 min. The casting was for a fashion show, and then i had a shoe catalogue casting, followed by a tissue print casting. The other two were in the exact same building in Chai Wan, which you take a bus too. I was done by 2pm, and thankfully had the rest of the day off. Robin and i took the bus back, and then i just relaxed at home. I called my daddy-o (yo daddy-o!), and then attemted to call Matteo, who was busy, but then we chatted online. After the reconnection with the States, Kara (OHIO) came over and we waited for AnneLisa, which we WERE going to go to CItySuper (big grocery store), but ended up going to the agency to pick up our passports.
I came right home and made my pasta, and enjoyed it all, and shared some with the brazilians. Now i've just been relaxing watching a lot of Discovery Channel, some good stuff on. I've also fallen in love with No Reservations on You Tube, i absolutly love the way he writes and speaks about each place, his use of words inspire me to write on here, i swear.
So i've been thinking a lot about modeling, don't get me wrong i enjoy it. But i don't think its quite me. Now this has been a thought so dont' worry, but i just don't get out of it what i want. I constantly see other models here, and i just don't think i belong, in a good way..i think. I know i won't be doing this in 5 years, i mean i would love you if i could be but its not constant, and most importantly its not fulfilling. I don't think i get anything out of it personally, like i do helping people. I would love to travel the world but for other reasons. I want to volunteer in 3-world countries and teach english. I want to be a teacher, i want to be a restaurante owner, i want to be anything that is giving. Modelling is not giving, its taking. You aren't rewarded by someone else's happines, like teaching, or even cooking for people. Putting a smile on someone else's face is more rewarding to me, than a great picture of myself. What makes me think like this sometimes are the other models here, i've asked many of them -what do they want to be- and almost every answer is model, i've always wanted to do this. I mean really? have they not thought about the rest of their lives? Do they not know this will stop soon, it blows my mind to think that this is all they want, its too unrealistic to me.
now don't anyone freak out, and think i hate it here. I love hong kong, i love the experience, but the modeling is ugh. Its fun sure, i would rather be here for other reasons, like teaching, or owning a cafe, or something better. As cool as modeling sounds, its nothing more than that, i need to feel rewarded at what i do, and rewarding me is bringing happiness and help to others, not my personal image.
oh well i am still enjoying every minute i spend here, and even now more knowing that i will become something better than this. I'm not doing anything good for the better of the world...but i wiLL
so moving on..
Tomorrow is a national holiday so no work at all.
