i am sad sad sad n 心疼, a friend of my bro passed away and she is only 26yrs old.
she is actually my bro ex gf n i have seen their up n downs..tho is my bro who let her dwn but her death has nothing to do with this..
i went to the wake on the same day when i got the news..when i reached there, i still cannot believe it. i didnt cry but tear.i have not seen her for quite sometimes n to think this time when i get to see her, she is sleeping in the coffin...... oh ya her family chose a white coffin for her which suits her very much n i think it is a color for angel. when i reached there, some nuns i would say are doing prayers for her so i found a corner n sat by myself. my bro did not go with me as he is still at work, he said he will go down in the night after work..
min's 人緣 is very good, alot of her friends and colleagues came to pay their last respect to her. everyone is sad.. her siblings are sobbing all the way during the prayers. she is the eldest in her family..she has 3 younger sis and 1 young bro, they all look so alike! while there, i was recalling all the encounters we had. she was a sweet gal, who will remember my bd n send me sms to wish me, our bd are only a few days apart n i will wish her belated bd at the same time. she loves my mum pineapple tarts! every cny she will sms me or my bro to place order. then my mum would always give it her gladly. when my bro was enlisted, we went to send him n end up i am the one crying instead of her, when i recalled, i feel so silly. haha..
i feel so sad for her .. so young n so many things/ wishes not completed!! sigh .. life is really unfair n short for her.. i dont understand why ... alot of things i really dont understand..
today is the funeral, i decided not to go.. i cant bear to see the sad atmosphere. my bro did not go too..i believe he cant bear to see her turn to ashes too..
her incident was reported in the papers...a month ago, she went to a gathering at a friend's house n she knock into some glass. i guess the impact must be big.. she also got thyroid n is on medication at the same time..there's side effect with the medication n they thought is the side effect of the medication not the knock! she did went to the doc who asked her to monitor for 2 weeks but end up, they are treating her thyroid not her knock! she fainted at work on wednesday n was sent to A&E and she passed away on thursday morning in her sleep.. such a good girl dont deserve this .. really .. i dont understand why .. sigh...
back to the wake, i was sitting alone n trying to figure who is her parents as i have not seen them before..after that i went to give the 白金 n went to pay my respect after the prayers.. her mum was inside with a relative or friend. she turned to look at me so i decided to let her know who i am... i told her i was wm's sister. her reaction was scary .. i thought she was going to slap me or wat.. seriously, i dont know why that came into my mind .. she hugged me. i was shocked la..dont know why she did that, she hugged me n sobbed abit. said i 有心了. 他們曾經很好過... i know she is still angry with what my bro did to her daughter cos she told me when they broke up, 她哭得很慘. i told her i know .. i was with her..that period of time, i still keep in touch with her but after that i didnt cos i think she should let it go and get over it to continue with her life.. i have the same experience n i also learnt to let it go that way... i was worried for my bro as he will go to the wake that night n he told me alone, i told him not to go alone.. asked him to join his friends instead..i feel her mum's emotion might be affected by my bro's presence...i dont know what we can do for them n i hope they will be strong and min will be her family guardian angel, looking after them from wherever she is now.. may min rest in peace...you will always be in our heart our sweet angel.
