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I have been busy
2008-11-08 2:57PM / 標準BLOG
I have been busy and I have not really had time to write a blog. I have been in and out of the hospital.First time was to have an operation to repair 3 hernias.Then the last time My heart was only beating 40 beats per minute.But I feel better now and I hope things will get better. I now have lost 51 pounds but regretably I have been smoking lately.My nerves are shot lately.My home life aint so good these days.Anybody who reads my blogs knows I dont get along with my husbands family.Well his aunt which is alot bigger than me decided she would start some crap with me,I took it for a little while.I swear the bitch is so stupid.She called me a whore,OK. I have slept with the same man for 12 years.How am I a whore.She is just jealous because she has never had sex and shes 45 years old.I said at least I know what IT looks like. But any way,My mom called and I picked up the phone and shes gonna take it from me and tell my mom to go to hell.OMG! I was so mad I started punching her in the face.My husband had to drag me off of her.As soon as he would let go,I was back on her beating the hell out of her.That was a month ago.I did break my finger though. I did not notice until the next day.I did not go to the hospital to get it splinted. so now it has healed crooked. A souvinier from my very first fight. Hey I am undefeated!!!!
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Blog: Thursday, Apr 24
2008-04-25 12:39AM / 標準BLOG
Hello,Everyone I am doing good on my lifesyle change and I have now lost 30 pounds and I have still stopped smoking.I am no longer a grumpy person I am actually laughing alot these days. I have more will power than I thougt I did. I am trying to get my husband to stop smoking also but he says no,He doesn't want to.But I know when he is ready he will quit. My doctor who I swear looks just like Jet Li! says he's proud of my weight lost and said dont give up.Like I was actually going to give up.NOT! There is one thing that bothers me.It said on his medical chart(poster),that if you stop smoking and loose wieght your blood pressure will reduce.But mine got higher.I never had a problem with high blood pressue before but now I do.He seems to think it's stress related. I will be celebrating my 10th annaversary friday april 25th.The day before Jets birtday.I dont know if it will last another 10 years or not. We have been argueing alot lately.Which always ends in me packing my stuff. I am really ready to walk away from him.Everyone's like you've been together 10 years, why leave now.well because I am not happy for one thing and even my kids cant stand him.And he's their father.My daughter asked me why don't you just leave him? The last time I tried to leave him, he put a gun to his head and said if I left he would have nothing to live for.So I stayed.I wonder what would've happened if I had left.I would be happier but not at the expense of someones death.Or would he have the nerve to do it. I just don't know what to do I feefl like Im being forced to stay in a marriage I don't want to be in. Well I guess i will write later.
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Blog: Sunday, Mar 30
2008-03-31 3:22AM / 標準BLOG
I am still doing good on my diet and I still have not smoked a cigarette . and i have lost 22 pounds.
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I am still diong my best.
2008-03-11 6:05AM / 標準BLOG
I am still doing my best I have not smoked a cigarette and I have lost 15 pounds.talk at you later.
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My battle with tobacco and fat.
2008-02-21 9:59PM / 標準BLOG
Well,it's been a week since my last cigarette.And I have been eating once a day.So I feel better.But I wish I was not be so grouchy. I've been biting peoples heads off left and right.I don't really mean to.And I feel bad afterwards.But I can't help it or can I? I may need to mediteate to get rid of those negative feelings.My karma is bad enough already.I do hope those people I snap at will undertand and forgive me.I kind of feel hopeless a little bit and I am getting discouaged a little bit,But I have enough faith in my self to not give up until I see the results that I want to see.When I say loose weight I mean over 50 lbs.So this is a long and time consuming journey ahead of me.But I know I can do it .When I feel like giving up I think about Jet Li and I feel motivated to do by best,and succeed at whatever I am trying to do.
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- I love to write poems,I have recently learned how to play the piano and keyboard.I am Teaching my daughter how to play also.I am compliplating on wether or not signing my son up for Karate lessons...I love to write poems,I have recently learned how to play the piano and keyboard.I am Teaching my daughter how to play also.I am compliplating on wether or not signing my son up for Karate lessons.He really wants to, but has astsma.He gets wound up when he watches a Karate movie,and does some of the moves he has seen,He is a fast learner.He can see something one time and pick it up imiditely.But bless his heart by the time he has to go to bed he is coughing his head off,and has to take a breathing treatment.I wonder if he wil ever grow out of it. He and my daughter love to sing. My daughter is really into the highshool musical movie. She has watched it so many times she has it memorized. I am married, have been for 10 long years.I reside in a really smalltown called waycross,ga.I have 3 brothers and 2 sisters.I am the youngest of all. My parents are really old.But are the best parents I could have ever asked for. My mother's health is really bad. She is 68 yrs old. About a month or so ago she was in the hospital and we didn't really expect her to recover,she had staff infection. and we thought they were going to have to amputate her toe. But the antibiotic was strong enough to kill the infection.Thank GOD! she is back home now ,and is doing better.My Dad bless his heart is a tough old bird, He is 3 years away from 80 yrs old,and still rides a bicycle. How amazing is that.You know what his secret is (slim fast)! He does't drink it to loose weight,he drinks it for the vitamins. He was a real stallion in his younger days,He told me a story today,that I just had to laugh at.He was arrested for something he didn't even do. When the 2 cops tried to put him in the jail sail he said," yall better call for back up cause the two of you aint going to do it" .he wound up having to pay just a 25 dollar fine and was releast. Now adays he is a retired preacher. And has one of the biggest hearts you'll ever find. But he still maintains that he is not afraid of anyone. He never lies,and never makes a promise that he does't intend to keep .And Thats my wonderful Dad.I would have wrote more about me but my life isn't as exciting as my dads.I think my main hobby today is writing on this computer,It's addictive. I am very proud of my children,they are so smart.and do their best in school .My daughter is in 3rd grade and this week her homework is so hard I have trouble helping her with it.So no I am Not Smarter Than A Fifth Grader.HA HA.Im kindof embarrassd to admit that.But hey it's true.If the shoe fits hah?
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